I am feeling melancholic.
There is no real reason for it I guess, life could be worse, but a couple people came to mind that I miss, yet I am constantly reminded that they are not around anymore. Because I still get votes from them. One is @wolfhart, a US veteran, who passed away three years ago this summer.
His last comment:
My last comment to him, a day late:
His second to last post was him reaching his goal of becoming a Dolphin and two days later, he was gone.
The other is @fknmayhem
I don't know if he has passed, I can't find anything out. He was the first person I sent a significant amount of crypto to to help, as he was holed up in a hospital in a foreign country with debts mounting and he asked for a loan. He didn't want to, it pained him, but he felt I was the only one that would be willing to give someone who was at that time largely a stranger, the trust.
We used to speak almost daily on Discord and if you read some of his posts about his life, you will see that he had lived one, albeit shorter than he deserved, if indeed he is no longer here.
The last time I heard from him.
He was fine for a while but started to degrade again and nothing seemed to help. I was trying to convince him to get back to his parents in Belgium, but with Covid restrictions and his unwillingness to be a burden on his parents, it just wasn't going to happen. He was fiercely independent, which is why asking for the help was so hard for him.
I hope his parents were able to talk to him a last time
I miss him. Even though at times, his level of knowledge went over my head and I felt like an idiot asking him to explain in layman's terms.
It happens
Death happens to us all and we all die alone - but if I wish something for all of us, I hope that none of us die lonely. It doesn't mean we need to be surrounded by family, but knowing people care about us might be enough for us to even alone, be comforted. Often, it is a choice though, as we live our life as we do, treat people as we treat them and get the results we get.
Unfortunately, the decisions we make aren't always correctable and sometimes there is nothing we can do and we just have to live with the consequences. Like it, or not. I know that @fknmayhem understood this well and lived his life on his terms, taking a stoic approach to his life.
Suck it up, Buttercup.
Words to live by.
Also to die by.
I don't know about you, but I am not sure I want to be known, let alone remembered. But here I am on a blockchain daily, writing my thoughts, engaging with people I will never meet. I didn't meet either of these people in real life, yet both had a profound impact on me and, perhaps while they were present, I impacted upon them also. All I can hope to get out of our relationships is that while they lived, their lives were a little better for us having connected, that there was shared value in knowing each other, even if we saw each other down the street, we wouldn't recognize one another.
It is a funny world, is it not?
Some people travel the world to meet strangers. Some people travel the world to kill them. I have been friends with both types throughout my life, and they are more similar than not.
Perhaps this is what gives me hope. That one day, people will reframe what it means to live, love and be a society, so that we can do far more together, than apart. I am hopeful, but I am not naïve - it is unlikely.
We want to be pain free, but we just can't sleep.
Not yet.
We have one life, but within, we live many times.
Taraz
[ Gen1: Hive ]
He was(is?) a supremely knowledgeable chap and also resolutely down to earth and pragmatic. We shared the Mod duties on some Steemit telegram before the hive switchover and sometimes when he would back me up against the more mental-case of the trolls on there and what he was saying about blockchain/finance/crypto mechanics would go whoosh over my head. But he was a great guy. I hope that in fact he is not gone just done with digital life. Thats a nice hope.
He had a very dry sense of humor too, which helped us get along well :)
As much as I hope he gave up the digital life, I think his blood was predominantly zeroes and ones.
Those with a sense of humour are the best of folk. :O)
I don't know how some manage to make it through an entire life, without one.
It's hard, even with an online friend :( I found that out, but I don't regret for a second that we met seemingly randomly on Discord.
A friend is a friend and when you become part of each other's daily life, there is a daily void for at least a time too.
Exactly :( ... But we are privileged to have whatever time we are given. We should celebrate that, and remember the good times!
Such a mood dampening post.
After working in oncology, I have seen reasons why people need support before they die
Didn't mean to be a downer :)
Oncology is a hard place, especially when there are kids involved. Hard not to take it home with you.
Even with the elderly, it is so difficult.
I love this take on the classic "we all die alone" to be honest. Sometimes I have conversations on the blockchain that seem more real than shit talked with people in the real world. And it seems weird to think like that, but guess I'm not the only one.
I hope you live a long time, and many lives. Both within, and without.
Or seems you and I aren't the only ones who find a lot of the "real" world, much less real than its purported to be.
Long life is onlikey, but hopefully a meaningful life is still on the cards :)
How are things?
Meh, long life's overrated, anyways. Meaningful, definitely.
Confusing, exhausting, marvelous. Tinged by the ever-present question "how much longer can this nightmare last?". Fine. Things are fine. :) What about you, friend?
I understand the feeling, I get it sometimes...even though mine probably stems from something more familiar. We have but one life to life, and getting to live each day to the fullest is a blessing
We all have our ups and downs, I guess it is like after exercise though, where the speed of recovery matters.
You were on wolfhart's dolphin Post too :)
I always believe there's a reason to meet new people and at the same time it is good to always show a positive impact in such people's lives in other for them to be remembered, I felt sad reading this but I believe the motive of been good should continue
If you don't want to be known or remembered you need to pretty much be a hermit. If you have family or friends someone is going to know and remember you :)
Are you feeling a bit less melancholy now?
There was a woman on here that was quite active on the natural medicine side of the community that has passed away we learned last year or the year before. It’s a wild thing interacting with and engaging with someone for a while on here, never meeting them but then suddenly one day they aren’t here any longer. It’s certainly sad to experience. I’m glad to have had chances to interact with people in real and digital life that have been good people to spend time with, even if the time is short. I think they leave impressions on lots of people and that’s important. They might not be remembered for generations but I still remember bits and pieces of my great grand parents on both sides which is great. Keeps their memories alive for a few hundred years if you think about it.
Hopefully some we know and love will be able to look back on places like hive here and see what we’re like in 50-100 years. Will they think we are fucking nuts? Probably! That would be a lot of fun, thinking your grandfather or great grandfather was a legend in his time lol I know I got some good stories out of my grandfathers before they passed, ones I know my parents don’t even know.
I think this is a feeling that starts from a certain age for a human. For this reason, people advise each other to marry, not stay alone. I don't know if it is a solution because it is not quaranteed that your wife or children will take care of you.
I don't know about you, but I am not sure I want to be known, let alone remembered.
Don't cut yourself short mate, as many of us will remember you even though we are strangers.
My brother in law is a very proud man and he is dying. His biggest pain is having my sister changing his nappies. Cancer of the liver is always bad news.
I am also not worried about remembrances and I would rather die alone than having to have someone nursing me out of this life.