I'm not a drinker. I do it on rare occasions and it's usually to forget about some past pains and lighten the mood a bit. I usually just smoke cannabis for this.
Two days ago on Saturday I attended a wedding and its party soon after. Can you guess what happened?
I got hammered hard with various alcohol drinks. From, "tecate", to liquor to sotol. By midnight I was dancing on my own like a lunatic. To further add to the BS ofbad choice I even did cocaine that night. What a relapse.
I am truly looking over my own decisions and for the most part I don't regret it. I had fun before and after my intoxication. Looking back I know I could have had a great time without any of yhe above influences. So why did I do it?
To be honest I wanted to forget About my past two relationships. The only two relationships I really had.
The first I had my children with and the second was who first introduced me into being free without any care in the world.
In part I still love them both. I miss them both. But, I must love them from afar because together we were intoxicating as a couple in the long run. It just wasn't worth it.
Well thats a long story and I'll be happy to talk about it some other time with my nrxt relationship.
(what next relationship yayo? you suck at speaking up to women!)
ahhhhh
then the drinking began. To forget about all that nonsense from my past and all its pains it brings me on a daily basis I just needed my mind to rest from all of that. I was here because I was invited by my friend and I wanted to have fun along side. be it as it may be.
But then something miraculous happened that day. I met someone. And this was before the drinks and the party. but there she was again. And this time I got her number, her name and she was game for my being lame. We danced. we talked. boy I felt like I had regained confidence once again.
Anyways....
yea... the alcohol. sorry I trailed off.
yea the following morning I was supposed to work but that didn't happen. We call hangover "crudo" (roll that "R" slightly, its Spanish). And I had it badly yesterday. Even today I still have that looming headache pounding. The unbelievable heat wave with this dried out humidity is not helping either.
So yea yesterday, I spent my day in bed with periodically hitting the bathroom to puke out my breakfast, brunch, lunch, linner and dinner.
In part I acted like a loser but in another state I was a winner too. Rediscovered something inside me.
That I still got it in me to fall in love again.
damn what am I saying?
bong hit
Hi you aren’t lame or scared to talk to any lady it’s the fear of heart break. Firstly am happy you meet someone and just try not to change the common complains that came from your past and also the second. You doing okay brother just always know that they are people way worse than you think you are.
And I don’t drink myself but it all started with my first heartbreak and it made me happy and I also danced like a lunatic inside my room with loud music. And later in the morning I wake up with head aches. So I gat you brother just be free with your emotions and decide them well.