Taraz, we never met. But I have always considered you a brother, and I do not say this lightly. I didn't comment on your posts earlier for two reasons, first, I had to process this unfortunate event myself, and second, I am unsure that me writing here and then you writing a reply is a stress for you or not.
Being a dad with two daughters myself, I am thinking about smallsteps. What I have seen that kids are highly resilient, as long as you treat them like an adult.
As opposed to worrying about your condition, I plan to send the happy thoughts in future. Hope you feel better Taraz.