what horrible sin have I committed by being forth a new generation of children to suffer this shit?
You haven't committed a sin at all. It is the ONLY way humans can survive. Someone must exist to reach the light at the other side of the darkness. Your children may struggle but they are still needed. For knowledge to continue, for humans to have a chance in the future we must have children and we must share what we know.
I didn’t know how much I needed to hear that until I did.