This is so pathetic, poor you. reading this I felt goose bumps, she is a damned narcissistic, an unredeemable one. Thank goodness you were able to escape from this life threatening entanglement and is starting afresh. I know you may feel apprehensive to love but just know that the one who will truly love you will come your way.
Take care and keep healing.
It was a life lesson I needed to learn. That's how I take things. No matter how much good you do, there will always be bad people to use you, but that shouldn't change you. You are who you are for a reason. Like yourself as you are, but don't be blind to the world around you and waste your energy where you don't need to and the person doesn't want to change.