At your lowest, if there is someone to respond for you, those are the true friends, and those are the moments when you will be seeing the colors of your surrounding people. Many will prove you wrong, and many will make you feel like they are there for you no matter what. Fortunately or unfortunately, I'm going through my lowest and exploring the colors of my surrounding people, near and dear ones. To be honest, it's very thrilling to see the variety, leaving me perplexed with the hard realities, seeing my expectations getting scattered, and an unwanted response to keep me going.
This year, getting worse. I know I have said this multiple times already, but the good thing is I'm seeing the rays of positivity in the coming days, so it's like the light in the deep tunnel full of darkness that I'm walking through now. It's not just a walk, it's a journey to explore the way of life, how things work in the hard way.
I am not gonna talk about how bad the situation is right now, rather I'm gonna talk, as the intro goes, about how it helps us to know the surrounding people. Over the period of time, many times I've asked for help from many, most of them have responded to my call, a few have responded multiple times, and the number has kept decreasing. I know, they got tired of me, even I'm tired of myself, but the only thing is I can't give up, no option, they had the option to give up on me, so a few did. No objection, at least a few haven't even tried to help me out, so it's better than a few did, not once but multiple times. That's what I'm grateful for.
But you know what? The least expected friend, with whom I had serious conflicts, came for help the most. Even his help was equal to two or four of the others. Even after letting him down with my words, he believes in me, responds to my calls positively never lets me down. I have others, too, to whom I had expectations like a mountain and had rejected me, even though he could have helped me easily. No, it's not like they are bound to do so, but it's just me who is on the worst side, asking for help with the thought that I had helped them once too. Those days are gone, so they forgot as well. But no worries, I won't forget the people, no matter who did what, I will make sure I pay for the help they have given me on my worst days.
So yeah, that's how things have been going on. Calm and silent, kinda dependent on the people for helping me out. I know it's not the ideal way to go, but there's nothing more I could do, or maybe I couldn't push harder than I'm doing, or it can also be that I'm trying to chew way more than I can. Well, no way to step back, the show must go on and fix on the way without reversing back. Truly the most critical and important phase of my life, a long way to go.