Damn it.
I have been staving it off for weeks, but it has finally caught me - fever. I felt it starting about half way through the day, but toward the end it was in full swing. Fevers are a bit weird with me, as I can still operate "okay" even with a relatively high one, but I am far from my best and my concentration doesn't hold for very long, which is worse now in the last couple years. Still, I try to do something whilst with a fever, because I believe it useful to take the opportunity to act under different conditions and see what is possible.
I don't push too hard.
But, when I have a fever I tend to write a little differently, or perhaps different kinds of thoughts boil to the surface and escape through my pores as beads of sweat. I have postponed a couple things for tomorrow morning so I can sleep in a bit, but I also have some other things that I don't want to postpone, as it will just make my life much harder toward the end of the week.
Lesser of two evils.
The fever when I checked wasn't too high yet and sitting at 37.5 (99.5F) but I can feel it climbing. I am "good" up until around 39 (102F), then it starts to get a bit iffy. At around 40 (104F) I won't do anything, though I have been known to write - which can be interesting.
All in all, this is not a bad time to have a half day off, or more if I really feel I need it, as it is the start of the team quarter and due to the tasks on my table, I am for once waiting for other people to hand me some material before I can move on too far. However, this cuts into my planning and development time for what I must do when that stuff arrives.
Should I think about work while sick?
Why not? It isn't like it is time wasted, nor do I have more important or useful things to think about, so I may as well do what I can whilst I can - "make hay" as they say, though I don't think the sun is shining at the moment. Instead, I can do some mental prep work, maintenance work, get my thoughts aligned so that when ready, I can hit the ground running. And of course, in between, have a bit of a rest too, and just chill.
For me at least, I find that the benefit of "taking the time off" is not worth the cost of doing so. Sitting in front of the TV doesn't make me any less sick than thinking about something that has some future benefit for me, or others. "Time off" sick, is not quality time anyway.
I am rarely ill like this these days, though I do think that I have been getting more flus and fevers the last few years. I don't believe it is because I hid away from Covid though, because I didn't, so it is more likely just that my body is in a declining condition.
Life.
Though I am hoping to slow the drop. I have been consistently going to the gym and eating a "fair bit" better (far from good enough), but it is a process and I have a long way to go. Mostly, my gym workouts are a mix of deadlifts and hip thrusts, as well as a bit of lower-back strengthening. I don't do any direct upper-body movements, because I don't really need to build more size or strength there, and the weights I am lifting for the legs is enough to keep it maintained at the very least. Though, I am still pretty careful that I don't lift too heavy, as I am still a bit "sensitive" to having another stroke.
I like working out again, though I am still not motivated to actually do it still. It is strange. I am forcing myself to go there every time, and forcing myself to lift a weight, and there is still no flow state to it.
I miss flow.
I don't think I have had an experience of slow state since the stroke, which I put down to having to consciously think and act all the time. I can't be "out of my head" because if I am, there is just blankness, no movement, no thought, just dark. It isn't Zen, it is void. There is no intuition in that state, just a nothingness. I can even choose to observe the nothingness, which is kind of off-putting in some way, because it doesn't feel strange, it doesn't fill me with fear, it doesn't feel good - it doesn't feel anything.
But as soon as I do start thinking, all the little pains clamor for attention first and I have to block them out of the stream so that I can focus on what needs to be done instead. The moment we "pay attention" to our surroundings, we create a problem, because there is far too much to actually take in, so it is actually a process of exclusion and focus, not full awareness of the entire set of conditions. What moment are you living?
Think about it for a while.
I was talking to a psychologist the other day about being "present" and explained that in my view, if we truly live the moment, we are actually continuously dead, because a moment is a point in time, not a distance in time. There is no movement in that point as it has no start and end and when there is no movement, there is only death. When people talk about "living the moment" they are actually changing the definition of the word to describe the experience between two points in time, somewhere there is space to have awareness, somewhere there is movement. This means that they aren't actually living the moment, because if they were, they would have no awareness of it and be continuously dead. When they did come back to time, they would have no recollection of the experience.
And on that thought...
Perhaps it is time I took a poorly defined moment and had a rest.
How are my fevered thoughts?
Taraz
[ Gen1: Hive ]
I hope you get feeling better soon. I have been lucky enough that I haven't been sick in quite some time. Which is a miracle when you work at a school. It's pretty common for first year people in education to get sick like they have never been before. I remember my first year I was in a feverish haze. It was like an out of body experience. Anyway, all that to say, Covid has really made me take better care of myself and be more aware of what I am touching and how often I am washing my hands.
My wife and daughter were ill a couple weeks ago - likely the same thing. Part of going back to school. Now that Autumn is here too....
Yeah, that is mostly likely it! Take it easy!
I am actually similar. I tend to work even when I have a fever. Even when I was younger, I was also like this. I would go to school or work even if I have a slight fever. Only a full blown high temperature would prevent me from doing so. As I grew up though, I realized that this isn't healthy. Not only am I risking others getting sick because of me, but putting more strain on my body while sick is also bad.
Now, I try to be proactive whenever I feel like I'll get sick. I'll drink paracetamol, and lots of water to try to stop it in its tracks. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But when I do get sick, I try to rest as much as I can.
I can work from home with a fever, so there isn't risk to anyone else - except my family.
I usually rely on the seasonal changes to know what to do with the body. As we have some rain here, I usually get the ginger in the consumption. People who don't believe natural means to keep up with nature may not like this approach but changing food and the diet and overall habits as per season has it's benefits.
ginger and garlic are great for health - though many don't like the garlic, for obvious reasons....
I feel like your idea of living in the moment is similar to the thought process that altruism is selfish XD
Monitor that fever and hope it kills off whatever virus is infecting you and that you feel better now :)
Well, if you are doing it for the good feeling.... :D
I guess so XD and I'm also pretty sure that's one of the covert narcissistic traits XD
I heard about a nice exercise to recover from strokes, using visualization. I cannot explain in detail how it works, but the idea is that you start with a white ping pong ball, and try to recreate it in your 'inner screen/mind' exactly as it is, in your mind. and then maintain it for up to 15 min, if you can reach it eventually. Then stage two, use something more complicated such as an apple or an orange, and recreate it perfectly as it is, as you keep it in front of your eyes for a while. Then the fun begins, stage three, recreate the room that you are in, after you look around it for a minute, intently. Advanced stages involves recreating a whole building, or street, and then even whole towns. But this will take decades for most of the people. Reaching the phase where you can recreate a whole city in your mind and maintain it, this may or may not help you to have an almost photographic memory.
If you like the idea, test it. I just reached the room, and I can make it let's say 70-80%. If you have a bookshelf with books in that rook, may the gods of luck be with you.
I have heard about this or similar techniques. The problem I might have with it is that I have to build my minds eye picture from scratch as it is. It is incredibly energy consuming a d wears me out. It is like doing a math problem in the head all day...
Nothing worse and hopefully it passes sooner and is not the start of what I had 2 weeks ago. That was a shocker and even though it only lasted 4 days it wiped me out with no desire to eat for a good 5 days due to the consequences. Lets hope it is a seasonal thing and no one else gets it.
Still sweating my ass off tonight! Might be a little worse even - but I will survive. One of my colleagues was really ill a week or two back, so it might be the same thing.
Most likely is the same thing and should feel fine soon then. As long as it is not what we had here you are ok lol as we had 4 days of hell with everyone down. I never ate for 5 days and it was so contagious people we were around before all came down with this. Get better soon.
Damn hitting a fever of 40? That can't be good bud... Be careful ey!
I was never one that cared for getting sick, or rather cared for treating it. I always had this notion in my head that even if I drink some meds it'll still catch me at the end...
That was until I drank some meds before I really got sick and it worked.... But with that said I don't like drinking too much pills and what not when getting sick... After all your body can sort it out without any of those chemicals. I think the real problem is we don't have the right health habits and or eating habits... Which weaken our metabolisms.
Anyways... Goodluck with that!!
I have taken a couple Panadol throughout the day, but that is it. I don't see the point in taking all the other random stuff for an illness like this, since I am on so many for other things as it is!
We are stubborn in thinking that a fever is temporary and that taking a pill and some water will solve it, but it is not like that, we have to look beyond... We must ask ourselves and find the causes that cause the abrupt rise in temperature, usually as a result of an infection, perhaps a simple cold, but I know people whose neurons have overheated and remain as dry plants in a pot in the sunlight. A fever is a serious matter and requires hydration; no job is worth letting my illness pass me by, my health comes first.
It is common that people conflate work and "a job"
Yeah, Job is a noun that can be used as “work”, and work/to work is an intransitive verb.
There is an epidemic in my city, perhaps in country nowadays. I am not sure whether it is due to the cooling weather or the new variant.
I think you shouldn't work when you are ill as it is not important tha your health. If you do so, they will think he is able to work even when ill. They should know taking over your tasks if necessary.
It always depends on the work being done. Thinking work is quite interesting to do in different conditions and after years of playing around, I can remain productive if I must. A lot of people these days need perfect conditions to do even their basic job.
Fever is usually caused when you expose your body to cold, and it's usually serious at night and then comes down during the day.
Sorry about your illness, get well soon.
To me I don't think it's healthy, you can delegate some stuff to certain people or better still a day or two won't ruined everything your health is very very much important right now,
those numbers are pretty high in my opinion tho, you really need enough rest, mentally, physically just rest your body needs it to recalibrate and set things up before it breaks down...
Hive as a whole really care about you, you know 😊✌️..
Whenever, I have fever, I don't get to do any other thing. It takes all of my time and I will only be focused on it because all my body and bones will be tired.
I wish you quick recovery
However tempting it may seem to us that fever is just an ordinary thing that occurs in our body, it is important to pay attention to it when it comes. You can think of work while sick, it's okay but while thinking, don't forget to also think that health is wealth. You need to be healthy in order to work.
Do take good care of yourself @tarazkp
Fevered thoughts seem pretty normal to me. I know it is a shame to admit it, but there would be times I would go into work as a teacher when under the weather because it would be more work to plan and create a substitute lesson than just teach something myself. Of course, when having a sub, there is always the mess and disorganization of the classroom that comes with having a substitute for the day. It was all so much extra work, that I would rarely ever take an unplanned day off.
Hip thrusts ehh? Trying to make a bigger impact at home?