Previously, I wrote about ANTINATALISM as a solution
https://read.cash/@daffaputra/introducing-antinatalism-as-a-solution-c62d883e
Today, I write about my life experience, until finally, I became an Antinatalist.
After graduating from school, at the age of 19, I was immediately called to work with my neighbor in a printing press. I have worked with him for quite some time. It's been over two years and I've had nothing but exhaustion. The money I earned from my work ran out in a short time to meet my daily needs. I was only paid 20 thousand rupiahs per day. While I work from morning to night. No holiday. I am like a robot that works without rest. I am a production machine. How I suffer when I remember that time.
I am alienated. Alien, feel like an Alien; I go to work just to wait for time to come home and time to get paid. I'm not being myself. Entrepreneur, I have no capital. I'm willing to starve for a while but I can't let the rest of my little family starve. I realized this was all slavery. I went left. I invite others to accept the concept of the left. I indoctrinate. Consequently, I was fired.
Humans in this system are just tools. A tool that is used when it is useful and discarded when it is useless, moreover, it is dangerous.
However, at that time I was very sure of the ideals of Socialism. Ideals where Humans are no longer a 'tool' (zuhadness) for other Humans. But over time, nothing has changed; those in power continue to stick to their power.
And we can only rhetorically. I became pessimistic. Even not only I, but Gramscii also once said that when he sees the current reality, he is also pessimistic. The rulers are getting smarter; they continue to do everything possible for the sake of the continuity of their power.
Then I met Antinatalism at a time when I was already under. I studied it and then read firsthand the works of David Benatar, Emil Cioran, Thomas Ligotti. I delve into them.
And began to ponder. The power of this system depends on the pawns that perpetuate it. Bringing children into the world is tantamount to bringing new pawns to perpetuate this system. I am already pessimistic about the future of Socialism. I'm tired of being an active left. Now I change the way of resistance: by refusing to bring slave slaves to continue the life of this system!
Perhaps not having children and grandchildren personally is insignificant to the destruction of this system. But at least, I have forgiven the generation that is rooted in me from experiencing the misery of living under the heavens of this system of things.
I'm not gambling. I believe life is a possibility but, by not bringing it into existence, I spare them from the worst possible occurrence. How does a good possibility come about? It doesn't matter because they don't exist. There is no gain or loss. Profit and loss are only the calculation of those who enter into existence.
I have written this about a year ago on my blog in Indonesian version.
https://putracahaya100034.blogspot.com/2021/02/antinalisme-sebagai-perlawanan.html