The beginning of these posts was my My Life Just Hit a Brick Wall at High Velocity, on the Cusp of My 50th Birthday: Mid Life Crisis 101 post. I link that post because I want to give my readers some useful context for what I write in these posts.
Warm greetings all! 🙏 💚
My newfound, or redoubled, Hive Fire that ignited inside of me over the past four days continues burning strong, even with challenging moments that still permeate my present experience. Today Juan gave me some dried Hawaiian native entheogenic mushrooms, that grew here on the property. It was a small handful, but one that was, that is, much stronger and more intense than I expected.
I've periodically worked with entheogenic mushrooms for many years now, almost always being deeply beneficial, and often immensely healing. It's been a very interesting experience, with such intense mushroom energy running through my system, as I wrote my #WednesdayWalk post today, let me tell you! As is often the case, the mushrooms connected with my still broken heart, and immense waves of emotion brought me to tears multiple times this evening. I still have much to heal and shift, and the mushrooms brought that squarely, and very uncomfortably, back into my awareness. I was still able to do my various Hive activities, but it required far more concentration and focus, that is for sure.
I very strongly need to reconnect with my core life energy, and fully. I can't remain in this brokenhearted limbo for too much longer. It would not be a good place to stay. Hive has deeply inspired and empassioned me, which is amazing beyond words, but that also doesn't take away the present fact that I have very little expression of my real, authentic self, and why I'm here on Earth, in my life at the moment.
I need to realign myself with my greater purpose once again. And I'm going to be writing about my very human experiences through this seemingly often challenging point of re-creation of myself and my life. My process may not be elegant or pretty, but I'm going to continue showing up here on Hive with all of you lovely people, every day, to create something truly beautiful.
With the payout this evening of my last #WednesdayWalk post, and this post from last week, my Hive Power got another good bump, this time to over 914 HP. That's the largest jump I've had since my breakup with Kaï. Oh, and Kaï. Yesterday was one month since she and I saw each other face to face, and today marks my one month here in Nanawale. I was feeling a lot around that this evening, especially with the help of mushrooms.
Anyway my dear Hive friends, I think it's time for me to finish this post, and do my best to wind down and relax my system so that I can very hopefully sleep well. I haven't slept almost at all for five days now, so I'm ridiculously tired and exhausted at the moment. On a positive note, my status in the @ecency leaderboard has held solid, though I've noticed that it never went above position number 7 for daily. That would suggest to me that to go beyond that point, I would need to engage the Hive community quite a lot more than what got me to the level where I sit now. That means I'd need to streamline quite a lot to increase efficiency. OK. One step at a time.
Good night to you all for now! I'm deeply grateful to come to know several here, in ever-deepening ways, each day. Thank you for being the wonderful humans that you are! Until mañana! 🙏 💚
My intention on Hive is to come to a place of complete (or almost complete) financial self-sufficiency, and to share my success with others, helping them rise.
All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.
Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚
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