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She discusses how her OCD manifests as compulsive overanalysis and perfectionism, leading her to obsess over interactions, whether to reassure herself of her worth or to understand what went wrong. She describes how this anxiety fuels blame—primarily self-blame—for issues in relationships, regardless of whether her partner treats her poorly or not. This cycle of self-criticism and hypervigilance keeps her trapped in a state of constant worry, preventing her from trusting herself or trusting her partners.