Incoming calls hit differently now, the heart starts to beat with an unknown feeling, it doesn't clearly state love, hatred, friendship, respect, or anything. Maybe it does and I am dumb to understand that. With a sky of hopes, the green bubble is pressed to answer the call.
After a few breaths from both sides there comes a mysterious sound, saying
-Hello
-Hi, how are you?
-Yeah, I am good.
-So how's life going?.......
This kinda formal talking goes on and on. From both sides of the calls, there come very calculated words. Both of them are trying to ask something that might be awkward, that would lead to something terrible, maybe to those locked memories that none of them wants to dig out. Let them be buried because the ashes are still burning.
Those non-stop phone calls are now in a limited time frame, those daily meetups are yearly by chance. The madness of those times turned into formal communication like two strangers being polite to each other, which feels more uncomfortable than that. Actually, suppressing feelings is surely a tough one, cant speaks your heart out, think twice before uttering something asif that doesn’t create chaos again and ruin everything once again.
Winter mornings or the rainy ones, memories are spread all over. Every weather gives a glance of you, how can you expect me to stay ignorant of all? That's not possible, not at all. The Wall of hatred has fallen apart, maybe it isn’t visible between us but there surely exists a sea of unfinished chapters that we tended to fulfill but lost in the midway.
So what's coming ahead of us? Way to mutualism to build the castle again or just waiting for another havoc between us to ruin everything once again in another way. Or just the formal communication that's fueling everything little by little. That's a dilemma, I don't wanna reach any conclusion anytime soon, situations will guide me at its best. Till then let everything flow as it is flowing.
Friendships that goes into disarray hurts a lot. The indifference after being crazy about someone has this weird tension it brews.. a sea of unfinished chapters..
Yeah, some chapters remain unfinished,
We gotta dream of our desired endings that won't be taking place in reality.
Thank you!
Everything has been so lovely and this last line got me. This is the same words that came out of my mouth this morning when someone said I was giving my best but I know I've tried and so I said let everything flow as it is flowing till till we're ready to make out decisions. Lovely post.
Ah, thank you for the appreciation and for sharing your thought too. I hope everything goes well on everyone's end.
I hope so too.
The awkward silence is killing at times.😞😞😞😞
Very true,
Thank you for stopping by.
You are always too kind.😌😌😌 Thank you.