Distant to life

in Scholar and Scribe2 months ago

The toxic thoughts that sometimes obsess our mind


"Distant" - an AI-generated artwork I prepared in starryai

Distant to myself

Stress takes its toll on us. Demands come from every direction; for many of us - most of the tight demands come from the inside. We become distant from our true self; we even start rejecting it, downplaying its value.

But do I even have any value?

This is a sad but real question that some of us have asked. What am I actually worth? Can I really contribute to anything in this world? Do I deserve a place in it?

Distant to the past

When some major tragic event happens, we start avoiding it over time, i.e., claiming that time heals. It does not. Wounds never truly seal. We learn to live with them. We get used to the fact that there is some pain - "the new normal", as many would rather commonly say nowadays. We make sure we never dig into those memories since, well, they are gone. Just that they are not; they pile up, one after the other, and eventually, we start pulling a heavy load everywhere, including when we are climbing up the tall hills of challenges and opportunities life brings. It is exhausting. We become just a shadow of what we could be. Yet, we believe that this is our best.

"Lonely and confused" - an AI-generated artwork I prepared in starryai

Distant to the world

Rejection is deeply ingrained in the human mind. Anything standing out attracts attention. Difference makes us start comparing an object, a person or a situation to another. Which one is better? Is this different one inferior? In what ways? Being the object of rejection means that you expect it to come spontaneously, from anywhere. Life becomes a fight or flight. One can either try defending themselves or hide, pretending that they do not exist. We are nothing and become distant from the world, living in the safety of our own bubble, a somewhat working survival strategy.

Distant to the future

Having experienced rejection and criticism, carrying the weight of the past and getting the wrong self-image leads to a gloomy attitude to the future. We tend to extrapolate based on our past experiences. How can I possibly achieve something if nobody has ever said that I am decently good and when my flaws have been underlined consistently? Do I even have the right to expect to achieve anything in my life? What future can I truly expect?

"Uncertain future" - an AI-generated artwork I prepared in starryai

Distant to one's dreams

I am worthless and unwanted; therefore, I do not deserve to receive/achieve the same as others. I wish that I could maybe succeed at work or with a hobby, but how can I expect that to happen when I am clearly inferior? I should not dream. It cannot happen. It will not come true. I am just wasting my time, keeping my head in the clouds. Dreamers are redundant members of society. They believe in vague images and waste resources that society can put into better purpose. They have to be banished. Dream jobs are overrated. Ideal partnerships do not exist. But since I identify as a dreamer, it immediately means that I simply do not qualify. I have to mask it and pretend I am someone else.

Distant to fears

The toxic way of thinking above is real. It is not attention-seeking. It is how some people go through life. Pity is not the proper reaction, but understanding and acceptance are essential. One never truly heals from past experiences, but acknowledging them is crucial. Recognising a problem is the first step toward addressing it. You cannot resolve an issue if you have no idea what it is. After that starts a long and winding journey, full of ups and downs. Its ultimate destination is to get distant from the toxic attitude towards oneself and start building a new one that makes life much more bearable and satisfactory.

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This is my entry to the Dreemport #dreem-wotw challenge with the prompt "distant". For more information:

https://ecency.com/hive-199275/@samsmith1971/distant-thoughts-abound-contest-dreem

Special thanks to @samsmith1971 for organising the contest and particularly for the inspiration and the regular support!

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This article is (or will be) reposted on my other blogging and social profiles.

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Lovely, I shall be back to read this later! Looking forward to it. Did you pop it in Dreemport this evening? :-)

Thank you, no hurry! Yes, I remembered to submit it 😊 !LUV

Oh my, I loved this from start to finish. I want to cry because you spoke my heart here. Sunday I felt the depth of everything you have said here, taimen. We all need to seek out the peace within ourselves so that we can heal. There is so much brokenness in our past that has brought us to this point in time. I would love it if you would consider joining in with the #speekpeece Dreemport challenge over the next 3 weeks. It is not going to be easy, but we can get through it together. Catch up on @dreemsteem's recent posts highlighting the daily requirements and the challenge post that will be due on Fridays. Tag me if you need me to help you find the detail but it should be easy enough on Dreem's blog. I think you would benefit so much by taking part and joining in on this journey. !LUV !ALIVE !PIZZA

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Thank you, dear Sam! I appreciate the feedback! I’m glad that you gave me a kick to sit and write at a time when I thought I can’t produce anything meaningful. I’ll gladly write for the next challenge.

This is great , especially those artwork, you have got a beautiful art skill. Keep it up.
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Thank you very much! !LUV

YOU are welcome. thanks 😍😍

I enjoyed this post, you used the wotw to highlight the struggles those around us face every day, and I think that is lovely :) What an important reminder of the distances that exist to others, a helpful perspective for those of us who wish to be kind ❤️ Thank you for sharing @taimen!

Thank you for your feedback! Yes, for some (many?) this is the daily reality. Writing is an amazing outlet of emotions.

Your artworks are truly amazing that's my major catch, and you did great with your content specifications... Nice content keep up the good work and engagements @dreemport brought me here!

At the root of all of those issues seems to be accepting other people's opinions as truth, without having one's own opinion count 😢

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Probably so. In a sense, one needs an unbiased opinion about their skills. Generally, you can't know if you're assessing yourself objectively. But then the world can be judgmental, rather than constructive in their comments, and one ends up confused, and often hurt.

Thank you for the curation!

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It was my pleasure 🙌

I guess the best solution may be to use common sense, plus ask for constructive criticism from trusted sources.

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Yes, that’s true. It’s important to choose the circle of people in your life. Thanks!

This is a pure poignant article written with emotional experiences that you encountered. Funny enough this is so relatable to me because I have had thoughts like this in my previous dreemport wotw contest titled " Time " you can look it up here ...so you see we humans almost have same thoughts sometimes.

I love your artworks and they truly merge with your narration of how distant it is to you and how it relates to your past! Thanks for joining this month prompt on " Distant ".

Thank you for the kind feedback. It's true that two people can have the same thoughts even if they haven't interacted with each other before. It's the magic of human mind.

That's true though.... but that's one thing science can't really fathom!

Maybe one day. 🙂

Yeah sure!
Hopefully!

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