My Post and the Words Some Will Read Someday

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I was cutting down a tree the other day when I realized a chainsaw would probably work better than insults.

If that joke flew over your head, don't worry about it.

Is it a good time for jokes yet?

Too soon?

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Too late?

I've been contemplating my return to this world of words and sometimes fucked up images when I feel like creating them.

A break meant to be only a few days away morphed into nearly two weeks of being gone.  Typical me.

I see the local drama.  Hive stories.  Nothing new there.  To be honest — which will most likely get me in "trouble", since that's how honesty works — I'm looking forward to the day this tiny community can grow with roots that aren't attached to so much baggage.

Thinking back to when Hive and all of us broke up with Steem, I remember writing about how the situation was similar to a bad breakup.  I've seen others use the same analogy as well.

Moving on to three months later and now it feels like I'm dating Hive, and Hive is still dealing with this bad breakup.  I don't mean to be rude but, it's kind of annoying.

Just when Hive was about to give me that sloppy blowjob I've been kind of hinting at for the past few months, the ex calls and apparently they're still on crack, stealing money, and being loud on the phone at two in the morning.  So I guess I'll be whacking off in the shower for a few more weeks.

I like how Hive looks though and the personality is sweet, most days.  Intelligent as well, so that's a bonus.  I don't want to dump Hive because of all this bad breakup drama.  Willing to give it a chance because it's not Hive's fault the ex is fucked in the head.

Anyway.

I'm sure that made a lot of sense to some people.

I think we all can agree waiting will be worth it.

This time off has given me some time to think.  I needed that.  Still not in much of a creative mood.  Not really interested in creating any new artwork and the words you're reading have been and will be anything but polished.  Doubting I'll be back full time any time soon.

While I was away from these words and your eyes, my secret happy place burned to the ground.

That's not even a metaphor.

Not long ago I wrote about a trail I found.  I've been familiar with the area all my life.  It was my first time on that trail.

Roughly two weeks later I'm being evacuated because some dumb shit doesn't know what "Fire Ban" means, lights a fire, and those very flames ended up burning thousands of acres worth of pristine wilderness to the ground.

I remember seeing the smoke on my way home after paddling a kayak two miles, hiking up some sand dunes then into the bush just to find a quiet place to smoke a big fat doobie and trip out on bird sounds.

That was such an awesome day.

The smoke was several miles away.  I thought maybe a farmer is burning some grass.  That's common around here but frowned upon when conditions are dry and windy.  Not even a month ago I was helping my dad burn some cattails down.  We had flames reaching for the sky, thirty feet high at least, for a few tense moments.  Things quickly settled down though, which is normal, when you know what you're doing, making sure to burn the edges first so it can't spread.

Whichever asshole lit the forest fire nearly made me dead.

A small cloud of smoke seen from miles away turned into flames I could see by the end of the day.  It looked like the sun somehow touched the earth as it went down, then melted and spread out everywhere.  So I watched, because it was far away, there was nothing I could do, and I wasn't allowed to light my own campfire on the beach because the neighbors are super nosy and like to call the cops.

Then the cops came.

They were knocking on my door.

I've been living in this cabin alone ever since they said the world was going to end and we needed to be socially distant.  I don't get too many visitors.

I watched the cops knock for about five minutes.  They knew someone was home.  The lights were on.  Music was loud enough.

I wanted to see how long it would take for them to see me sitting on the deck behind them.  It was funny to me.  One of the cops was awkwardly spying through the kitchen window, "I think I can see someone."

No you can't.

Before they got a chance to break some windows, I lit another joint.  The sound and light got their attention.  This was the first time I got to smoke weed in front of cops since they legalized it so there was no way I was going to pass up that opportunity.

They told me the fire was out of control, heading this way, and asked if I knew if any other residents were staying in the neighboring cabins.

Some live here, some only visit on weekends and summer.  I clued them in by explaining if you see a vehicle in the driveway, there's probably someone home.

They told me to leave ASAP if I hear them on the street making noise with the sirens and talking over the loudspeaker.  Also recommended I get in touch with any neighbors I knew of and help spread the word, so I did.

The next day, about noon, all I heard were sirens.  The smoke was thick but I couldn't see flames.  Two helicopters were flying over the lake, filling water sacks as they hovered over the water, then flying off into the smoke.

That was crazy, then the cops came, told everyone to leave, so I went for a long-ass drive.  Ended up sleeping in the vehicle on the outskirts of some town I never heard of.  Drove around for another day.  Went back to the cabin, and it was still there.

The wilderness was gone.

I then spent a couple days volunteering.  They gave me cool boots that went up to my chest with shoulder straps, a cool vest with reflectors so I don't get lost at night, or something.  We broke off into groups, I got to use an ax.  We all walked around looking for hot spots.

The three people I was with thought that joke at the start of this post was pretty funny.  The lead dude who knew what he was doing told me to, "cut down that tree," so I started insulting it.

To conclude...

That's been my life for the past couple of weeks.

As stated: I doubt I'll be back full time creating content.  Maybe a little bit here and there as I find the time and motivation.  Not quite feeling it just yet.  My brain isn't here, it's somewhere else.  I'll find it eventually.

This time around I simply don't want to vanish for many months, though I could do that, easily, since there's a lot of life to live, and I enjoy it.

I'll see you soon.

Have a nice day.

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We broke off into groups, I got to use an ax.

I think I remember a story of you using an axe before?

Glad your cabin is still up and standing. Fires are pretty serious business and it is generally far better to go for a long drive than to try and face them.

Take your time, see you soon.

I've used plenty of axes. All different shapes and sizes. But this time I didn't kill anyone.

There was still quite a bit of space between the fire and civilization. Big area. One direction was cabins, the other was miles of wilderness and marshland. The wind was blowing strong towards the cabins, so they put all their resources on this side, but unfortunately a lot had to burn in order to protect the properties. It'll grow back...

I will take my time. Good to see you though. Thanks for stopping in.

It'll grow back...

Sometimes I wonder what it means when we try to stop carbon pollution, but then millions of acres of trees burn every year.

Some tree seeds can't even grow without first being burned. I'm sure that evolutionary step began long before people even knew how to light fires. Totally natural.

Still stupid to poison the environment. Plants seem to grow better in a greenhouse, plus I hate winter. Antarctica has tree fossils. We're in the end of an ice age right now. When they attempt to scare people with climate change, they often talk about rising sea levels and how bad that is for coastal cities. Nature doesn't care about those buildings. Look at all the coasts. They've been eroding for thousands of years. I doubt we humans can turn this planet into Venus and it's not like we don't know how to build floating houses. Poison the fish though and that makes you an asshole.

Some tree seeds can't even grow without first being burned.

I thought they only existed in Australia. The aboriginals used to light fires to keep the bush healthy - Europeans thought they were pyros.

Still stupid to poison the environment.

Indeed, adding to the issue doesn't help - but I wonder how much we can affect this particular metric. I think we should focus on pollution in general.

Poison the fish though and that makes you an asshole.

Because of this.

First nations in Canada used to burn the prairies. That's what helped feed the millions of buffalo that used to exist here. Technically those herds weren't 100% natural. People helped with fire, over the span of centuries.

I don't know how much people are changing things, and how much is natural, but I'm sure it's a combination of the two causing changes. People are much like an active volcano, but more like slow and steady rather than a massive burst. Still enough oxygen though, because you can't have fire without it. Fire seems quite common these days. Is anyone measuring oxygen? More of that stuff and this entire place will burn, which in turn helps create a balance again. Crazy how that works, when you think about it.

Pure poison. Created in labs. We don't need that stuff killing everything. Drugs in our water supply because they get flushed? Well that's what you get for drinking out of the toilet I guess.

Smoke a joint in front of cops without being arrested or fined, that's cool I'd like to have that possibility here. The breakup analogy is nice but I left the bitch without any regrets so this new girlfriend that is HIVE is making me forget fast the past relationship. Enjoy some of your free time, I was a bit worried because I coudn't find any of your post, is nice to see you back on the road, but take it slowly.

Have a nice day. 😄

Even the cops can smoke when off duty. Some of them anyway. Depends who they work for and what's allowed in the piss tests. That's a tough life and many drink, then some turn into assholes. Better off numbing the pain with a joint since they're going to self medicate anyway...

I did mention I'd be taking off for a bit, before I left. No need to worry about me. I always show up, eventually. Right now I'm focused on getting healthy and staying there. Just living. Might start working soon as well.

Sounds like eventful times you have been living.

Sorry to say that sloppy bj's are certainly not being handed out at will just yet,but like the cabin, we are still intact despite the odd arson attempt.

There were a few days where, I'll admit, I did nothing. But doing that nothing was something I needed to do.

Usually you can only get burned once, it sucks, but everything comes out better after the fire. I was devastated. I'm sure some are devastated here dealing with that drama. Unwritten laws of this world state it can only get better. It gets worse though if one forgets to put out the fires. Something like that. Trying to sound smart here and tie in some kind of moral of the story thing. Maybe I'll try again when my brain comes back.

One of my favourite pass-times is doing nothing.

Pretty sad to see fire damage to anything, especially to stuff which was around before you and I.

I'm doing nothing right now! Soon I'm heading out to golf a few holes.

I don't think that fire was set deliberately. Some of these massive fires are though and that's sickening. California was burning because of assholes like that. This was just a moron who wasn't respecting advice and the wind picked up so high it was out of control before anyone could stop it. A series of unfortunate events.

Fire is common in Canada. Most is caused by lightning. Thousands of acres burn every year, naturally. People try to stop it but they can't.

I'd love a round today, not played for a while.

Yeah, no excuse for lighting fires around acres of stuff that burns. Poor form.

After ten years I can finally hit the ball in a straight line... I also stopped stuffing cans of beer in my bag.

A couple of beers helps me I think, same with Pool, but then the steady decline and internal anger arises! Not thrown a club for a while though, growing up, slowly.

I raged once on the course. Normally in life I'm quite calm and don't really give a shit about anything. That day was different.

Boots that come up almost all the way to your eyes and axes and hotspots and shower whackery! This, my friend is a veritable tour de force of your finest! :OD

I didn't really feel like censoring myself today. What for!

Life's good. I had to give back the costume though. Still have the shower, I guess.

The shower is something that cannot be skipped. Fuck the censoring!!!

Gosh so sorry this happened :S
We decided to drastically cut down on animal products since Amazon forests, those really pissed me off. (a bunch of farmers were burning the forests to make space for livestock). Some other fire forests I know were started because of irresponsible cigarette smokers. Anyways, we humans already destroyed wayy too much of the nature, so family and I try to buy less in general (not much else we can do right now).

Really glad that the cabin is still there. I really hope the nature recovers well and fast there.

Sorry if the comment reads weirdly, my attention is slipping, trying hard to stay focused.

Moving on to three months later and now it feels like I'm dating Hive, and Hive is still dealing with this bad breakup. I don't mean to be rude but, it's kind of annoying.

This really cracked me up :)

Aside from campfires, which are incredibly common in this area due to camping and cottage life, this area has been free of wild fires my entire life. A mix of forest, grass and marshland was affected, along with farmland in the form of pastures. I sure there's at least one homeless moose now and maybe a lost bear plus a few pissed off ducks and geese. Much of what grows in the area will be back in no time. The large trees, that's the shitty part. I'm sure some of those will take at least 30 years to grow back to somewhat normal size. That part sucks but it will bounce back, plus less chance of an out of control fire again.

Crazy what they've done to the Amazon. Canada loses a lot of forest due to fire naturally though. Every year there's hundreds of fires burning and majority are natural. It's that time of year again.

Sex with the ex is never a good idea.

I'll have to go ahead and agree with you here.

Oh my you have a lot on your platter right now. Smoking a joint in front of cops can be a good start for a remedy😂. Glad your cabin is good, unfortunate to hear nature suffering because of the fire. Being socially distant living in a remote place in a cabin sounds like a dream for me.

My brain is still programmed to make my heart pound as I'm smoking with cops around. All those years of illegal paranoia have screwed me up I think...

Still plenty of places to explore. I think even once the fires are for sure put out, no more hot spots, it'll be interesting to walk around in this disaster area and explore some. There was still a few areas untouched within the chaos. Probably a few lucky beavers just chillin now, eating fried tree for a change of flavour I guess.

It's a nice place for sure though. Spent most of my summers here. Winter was long and harsh. Summer doesn't last long so we try to make the best of it.

Beavers love a crunchy snack, I am sure nature will regenerate and be better. Not sharing the same opinion about who might have started the whole fire. What a nice ryhme you got there in the first sentence, your heart pounds when za cops around, smooth hihi

After reading many words of mine you'll notice there often comes a time when I decide to rhyme.

I'm sure the fire was an accident. I won't call it a crime. Just someone being careless, thinking everything would be fine. I'm not even sure if they know who did it but someone out there probably feels like slime.

Oh yeah, I can only imagine the good night sleeps they must be having thinking of what they did🙈

Nice and informative

Informatively nice.

Nicely informative.

Snazzy.

Welcome back.. You took awhile. Hope the short break was worth it

I'll still be on and off for awhile. Doing my best to stick around today and chitchat when I can here. Can't do this daily for the moment. Seems like bad timing for content anyway with all the drama going on. Looking forward to the day this place is less about this place and more about everything else that's interesting.

The break is worth it though. It's nice to not be behind a desk most of the time.

Oh! I know right. I noticed your contents have not been popping up on my page for about a week plus.
Well, it's nice to know that you are good but just trying to cool off.
Trust you are using the break to prepare some more interesting posts for us haha

I hope I'll have something good for you folks when I'm back into it steady. For now it's best I spend time entertaining myself more, since that's something I often neglect to do.

Self love is necessary. We need to create time for our happiness too.

How do you tend to achieve this? Music, movies, reading, sleeping? How?

Music is always good. Watched a few good movies lately, which is something I haven't done in months. I always read. Sleeping is good. Just chilling. I got some plants growing. I like yard work in the morning. Kayaking, dirt biking. Outdoor stuff. It's often cold in Canada so when it warms up we try to make the best of the days.

It's good to know that you love music. Music is the best therapy. 😍. Do you perchance listen to Nigerian music?

The weather - that's one thing we somewhat enjoy here in Nigeria. The weather is always favorable to certain extent. It rain in its time, sun shines in its time. But we don't see snow here haha😂

I probably heard some Nigerian music while living in Edmonton, which is a large enough city with many different people from all over the world. Haven't thought of searching for some myself but I might later just to check it out.

Hohoho super cool! I love your stile!

Intending on taking a [x] long break and taking a [y] long break instead sounds exactly like you :)

Ergh, not surprised you don't really feel like doing/making a lot right now x_x that sounds exhausting. Make stuff when you feel like it again.

When it feels like work, you know it's time to step away. No need to force it. Plenty more enjoyable things to do in life while I wait for my mind to settle back into what it wants to do naturally.

The breakup drama and crying over a crazy ex is not too appealing for sure, maybe that's why we are not getting any new people in here. But are we the kids that decided they wanna stay with daddy instead of mummy(since Justin clearly is a bitch) after the divorce?

It's easy for new folks to feel left out but at the same time, that's a good thing, since nobody needs this stress. Part of me keeps thinking I'll be screwed over next, along with more of us. Indirectly, we are getting screwed. It's super annoying.

Maybe we are the kids who picked sides, got away from drunk-ass mom. Most of us are old enough to be on our own though and don't really need to be dealing with any of this. I look forward to family visits, where everyone has fun...

Hopefully that can happen, eventually.

I'm really sorry to hear this. Fires like that are scary. For a short while I lived in California and wildfires were a part of life, one which told me I needed to move. Too much stress for sure .

Sex with the ex? Oh, come on you. Don't you remember why she is your ex?

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The major fires in California recently could have been a wake up call for many but, it wasn't. I can't say I enjoy winter here, which is probably the opposite of fire, yet for some strange reason I don't move either. Is any place truly perfect? Probably not. If there was a perfect place, people would hear about it and screw it up within days.

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It's certainly been eventful in many walks of life hey? Still trying to fully wrap my head around what's happened at the top here but I've been trying to crack on myself in the music studio. A break sounds like a good idea though, thinking of slowing down a bit on posting from June, the "daily post in a month" challenge is hard to maintain!

Hope you feel better, catch you soon.

I was so impressed recently seeing your work sitting high. Maintain that focus. I'm trying as well even though all this drama around here and there can make it hell. It'll pass...

Good to see you. Sorry I'm so late responding. I guess I missed one.

You're not the only one who was surprised with that trending appearance! I wasn't expecting it and very grateful to everyone who gave it support so thank you too.

I try to stay out of the drama and politics myself and try to spread some rays of sunshine through the stormy clouds.

No worries, I was late commenting on this one, many spinning plates and all that!

Such a bummer about your forest burning. Thank goodness cabin made it through.
Life can be so hard sometimes that as much as I want to help solve global issues like climate change, there are days when I have to remind myself to just breathe
Be well my friend and BREATHE

The air is always there.

Damn, sorry to hear about your forest. At least you're still alive though.

Hopefully the dumb shit died in the fire?

I think I'm still alive. Would I know it if I was dead?

I don't know if I'd wish for dumb shits to die in fires. I'd rather see them fall off a roof or something...