Hey Steem fam,
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and there may be some of you wondering how I’m making out with my quitting gambling.
Well the truth is I started out really well but then I fucked up royally and gambled a couple of times. It wasn’t like it was a lot of money and it didn’t affect anyone. Right? Wrong! It effected me greatly. It’s something I really wanted to do for myself. Something I had/have to do.
I fell into a deep depression because of this and for days upon days felt like complete shit. The pain I felt inside was unbearable. The people in my life I’ve let down, lied to, broken trust etc...
I read a lot on gambling addiction over the last week. I’ve quit and and this time hopefully for good. Some articles were saying that gambling addiction has more suicides then drug and alcohol addictions FML.
I’m 33 years old and I think I actually am starting to fully understand what life really is. Life only has one purpose. LOVE!
That’s it, it’s so simple and right there in front of us but hidden under all the fake stresses and issues that are thrown upon us by the elite. Brainwashing us to break up our families, destroy our communities, make people hate people, fascism, rich vs poor, two incomes to survive.
All of these things ruin life’s meaning. I was born a lover not a hater. Just like my son @kiedisbowes I see so many of my young childhood traits in my boy. I can’t let him lose those traits and that mindset. What the fuck happened to me. Why so depressed? Why so angry? Why the gambling and secrecy?
I am moving forward different then last time. I realize the needs people have around me and my own. I need to be there for the people in my life. They need stability, honesty, trust. They need me to be there for them. I need a clear and healthy mind. Love is the cure. Why did I always think if I made more money I’d be happy? My family would be happier? My parents would be prouder? My children would be raised better? Love to my family is much stronger. Love to my children will raise them much better. Love with my parents will make them prouder!
I started playing guitar again and am fortunate enough to be able to be a part of some brand new music coming your way soon. I’m replacing gambling with music and love. A creative soul and brain instead of a lazy soul and brain. It’s never too late to change your ways.
I love you all