Greetings, @rok-sivante.
Great array of meditations. Very valid questions and summons.
I can identify with some of your thoughts/reflections
So constantly in conflict with a self composed of such complex characters,
searching for a peaceful simplicity..
Most of our stress and apprehenions are the result of imposed ideas, goals and purposes.
Full of desire to create, expand, inspire...
Aching to see the potential within us all to unfold...
Propelled by a longing for the completeness of an eternally brilliant masterpiece...
We obviously have unknown and underdeveloped potentials but its discovery should be driven by internal reallizations and self-motivation, but by external manipulation. Anything achieved under that (and it's almost imposible to escape that) ends up being unsatisfying.
Perhaps, even, that there is nowhere to go,
nothing to do,
no one to be -
but here,
this,
us.
and maybe not even "us"
The contemplation of that possibility is mindblowing.Maybe that's why most settle for conformity.