What gives you light, what makes you feel enlightened, what makes you feel bright, what makes you feel brilliant? For this there is no right or wrong answer, it is an exercise of my own to highlight what makes me feel good and give it more attention, cultivate it. This agility was not always so, and I am not always agile in it either, it is a constant process of acceptance and daring. One of the things I had the hardest time learning was my relationship with painting, it’s like when you know that fresh fruit juice makes you better than a soft drink, and yet you choose the latter, because it is a different satisfaction, until it hurts you. That's denial
NEGATION, the stage of any situation, grief, loss, where we do not see what is going to heal us, we do not accept that what we deny is the door to liberation. I sewed and I felt powerful, I spoke in public and I felt great, but I write and I feel full. The same thing happened to me when I saw a painter devoted to the art, but me painting? not at all, I denied myself the opportunity, I was predisposed, I had the emotional burden of not being able to reach the level of my father, that fear that gives you the comparison.
Although it was something that many expected from me, I had no confidence, insecurity reigned in me. It was a moment where once again I was left with nothing, those limbos that life sometimes gives you to expand; I remember that writing was no longer enough to express myself, I was empty, better said, I was drowned in my mind, so many things that I could not get out, then I dared: to accept and try the temptation of painting and brush beyond the scribbles.
I painted flowers, cups, women, wings, even an angel, perhaps representing all that I needed or I am, we are, with the days the calm and well being returned, but I was no longer the same, that good (nervous laughter), that daring presented me with an Afrika that now is more illuminated in every expression, every day has a reason to continue creating and most importantly, to finish all that project that begins, give it the life it deserves. That paintbrush gave me the light I needed and now I share with you.
Now, sewing gives me power, public speaking makes me feel great, writing gives me fulfillment and painting gives me freedom. We are all in one, so if it gives you light there it is. Thank you hivers for the company, stories with your doubts, comments, suggestions. For more inspiration visit my profile.
Que lindas palabras y nos alegramos de que encontrarás los lugares donde te sientes plena y deseamos que siga de esa manera ☺️ la luz está solo hay que saber buscarla y al encontrarla brillar mucho.
Que alegria. Muchas gracias.🦋
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