Marcha sin despedida

He abandonado la realidad,
no tengo palabras para expresar
el hecho que ni siento mi alma,
ahora que no estas, solo tu espalda.

_{I have left reality,

I have no words to express

the fact that I don't even feel my soul,

now that you're gone, only your back.}

No hubo aviso ni despedida,
fue como el soplo sorpresivo del viento,
bastante frío porque me deja helada,
como reina de hielo quede en tu fachada.

_{There was no warning or farewell,

it was like the surprise blowing of the wind,

quite cold because it leaves me frozen,

like an ice queen left on your facade.}

No es que siempre estuviste,
pero ahora que no estás,
se siente mucho más,
el vacío de las paredes y mi alma.

_{It's not that you were always there,

but now that you're gone,

it feels so much more,

the emptiness of the walls and my soul.}

Pense que era amor,
pero estábamos tan cerca
y lejos a la vez,
que nos perdimos en el cruce.

_{I thought it was love,

but we were so close

and far away at the same time,

we lost each other at the crossroads.}

No tengo ideas para excusarte,
el hecho que sola me dejas,
no hubo falta de amor y atención
éramos solo dos en una falsa unión.

_{I have no ideas to excuse you,

the fact that you leave me alone,

there was no lack of love and attention

we were just two in a false union.}

Ahora solo quedo sentada en el sofá,
aquello que era suave se siente áspero,
como mi garganta al tragar mi saliva,
entre lágrimas y un grito que se escapa.

_{Now I'm just sitting on the couch,

what was soft feels rough,

like my throat as I swallow my saliva,

between tears and a scream that escapes.}

No sé dónde estás
mientras intento mirar el cielo,
pero hay paredes que me detienen,
y una almohada que nada cálida esta.

_{I don't know where you are

as I try to look at the sky,

but there are walls that stop me,

and a pillow that's not warm at all.}

Me la he jugado contigo,
toda una vida perdida,
he perdido mi juventud a tu lado,
pensando que la felicidad era el experimentado.

_{I've had it out for you,

a whole life lost,

I've lost my youth by your side,

thinking that happiness was the experienced one.}

Estoy cansada de huir,
de esta realidad,
pero ahora que le doy entrada,
es amarga expresar su bienvenida.

_{I am tired of running away,

from this reality,

but now that I give it entrance,

it is bitter to express its welcome.}

¿Dónde estás Sr. Ohio?,
ni siquiera pude ver tu espalda
entre la marcha y el olvido,
quedan grietas sin sentido.

_{Where are you, Mr. Ohio?

I couldn't even see your back

between the march and the oblivion,

meaningless cracks remain.}

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