I love my mother 😘

I have to go to sleep. And I always have that I am now full of ideas. creatively consciously high on good sativa.🥳 And although I am not really a writer. I like to write down my thoughts every now and then. I am not super wise or smart. I did not get high degrees in school. I have worked a lot. And I learn by doing it. I have dislection and ADD more add And that was difficult at school. I have never been bothered by it myself, but it has shaped me.
Fortunately, I'm not super stupid either. I do have moments but that used to be 😝. No the last 5 years I have really changed. I try to build up life and keep what I have. And that became clear to me when my father developed cancer. That he also had a suffering way there. Fortunately not too long. When he died my life came to a standstill and I feel like I'm still only half a part of society. We are now almost 2 years further. And it was Mother's Day today. I had a beautiful bouquet of flowers⤵ with my brother. And I cooked for her.🥗🥩🍷

But I see my mother getting worse. And that covid propoganda scared her. she rarely comes out. Smokes a lot (no weed) and drinks in the evening. And I have no right to say anything about it. with my cannabis use I have the same distructive behavior. But cannabis also when used a lot. Not necessarily bad for you. But I am not going to deny that I have become lazy and lifeless during the day. But I'm going to work on that.

Another week of new opportunities
And I can close it well my mother said she was proud of me And that feels good. And with these thoughts, I close this post.