One More Major Vital Organ To fail And I Am Done For

It is refreshing to take a bath this morning, I haven't had a shower since Wednesday morning and I could really last not taking a bath if not for my need to use the toilet and brush my teeth.

If only I could forgo about eating I will, it is just we needed to eat in order to stay alive because we are living organisms but an organism as I am there is an aspect of having to survive which is why even though I am living I am not enjoying how to be alive and being happy.

Anyway my plan is for my body pain to get washed away a bit before I would use the bathroom but nature called and I have to really scoot into the bathroom already. Thankfully it wasn't relatively as difficult even though my feet are just killing me.

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That is what is hard for the NSAID pain reliever that I am taking, it is slow to act or take effect but it is long-lasting. So I would take it a day before my dialysis so come the day of my dialysis I can still feel the effects of it.

I am still worried that my joints are not really getting better because if they are I will not feel these joint pains anymore. I am just thanking God that my facial bone at least receded a bit and that it didn't enlarge like I was fearing from a few months ago.

I needed many prayers now more than ever because I cannot even imagine what will become of me. What I do not like are the misery that I am experiencing and that it would get worse if I will stop taking my medicines. So it is an endurance and work in progress and if I let go I will suffer the consequences.

Such is my life, so the struggle and survival mode is still on. The only end is that if my body would give way and give-up on my. My Appendix was the one who gave way first so anymore vital organ and it will be a strike-out.