I’m a bit late with my entry for the eighth installment of Memoir Monday, for which we are to talk about something we would have done differently in our lives.
Part of me wishes I hadn’t started writing for these Memoir Monday prompts! Because I remember, and must write about, events or conditions that were painful for me. This prompt especially. Hence, I put it off until I saw that the ninth installment announcement had been posted.
The days fly by more quickly than they used to, it seems. Does anyone else find this to be true?
But I’m not going to avoid this prompt.
Let’s get into it.
There are a great many things in my life that I wish had never occurred. I wish my son had not died of Crohn’s disease. I wish my husband had not died of ALS. I wish my mother had not had a devastating stroke that made her final three years, at a too-young age, so difficult for all of us. I wish my daughters did not both have Crohn’s disease. I wish all of my dogs had not died of cancers under ten years of age. I wish my dear friend Gina had not died of multiple myelitis. I wish my brother did not have lung cancer.
What did/do all of these people have in common?
Very regular medical “care,” including all vaccines suggested by the US Centers for Disease Control. Regular diagnostic tests such as colonoscopies, MRIs, MREs, CT scans usually with radioactive contrast, mammograms, xrays, bone density tests, dexa-scans etc.
Every "well child" visit to a pediatrician saw at least one vaccine injected into a child's flesh.
Whenever someone travelled to another country, they had to get multiple vaccines. Now adults are expected to get multiple vaccinations every year, even if they have no plans to go abroad.
Whenever someone feels pain, they are irradiated.
Whenever one of my children got a high fever, it was off to the hospital with them, where they were immediately hooked up to an IV. If they were very sick, steroids and broad-spectrum antibiotics were pumped in just in case, even before any doctor had seen the patient.
All of this was true for my departed dogs, too.
Each and every one of those medications is poisonous. Each and every one of those tests is harmful. Each and every visit to a doctor is now accompanied by a poisonous vaccine or two, at least one prescription for a toxic substance, and in many cases an order for a harmful test. More time is being spent at labs or clinics, more time is spent talking to insurance companies that refuse to pay. All of this leads to more stress and more illness.
My children had regular colonoscopies at early ages after their stomach aches started. They had xrays when they swallowed pennies, fell from trees, or went to the dentist. I gave them Tylenol whenever they had a fever, along with other over the counter medications. Steroids of all kinds were used to manage their Crohn's symptoms. I thought “I know steroids are dangerous, but the best pediatric gastroenterologist in Manhattan (Dr. Joseph Levy) keeps prescribing them and he knows the danger levels, doesn’t he?” My children were prescribed Pentasa, Apriso and other ASA drugs, 6 MP, methotrexate, Flagyl and several antibiotics, along with those steroids. When none of those treatments worked, my kids got stepped up to injecting experimental and expensive biological treatments, a few of those administered by lengthy infusions in medical settings: Remicade, Humira, Stellara, and Entivio. I got pretty good at delivering shots of all kinds at home.
I spent about ten years taking my kids to as many as eight medical visits a week. I spent a good deal of time with my son, now deceased, in months-long hospital stays where the poisonings were administered by drip. He always returned home even sicker, and both of us were traumatized. A couple of times, we had to flee, because we feared that any more medical "care" would kill him.
In the end, I believe, his medical "care" did kill him.
The funny thing is that I had often said, even way back when, that our best chances to live a long and healthy life come from avoiding going to doctors altogether.
If I could change one thing in my life, it would be to have listened to myself.
An Unnecessary Evil
Time passes slowly
in a hospital room,
waiting for the next dose
and wishing for the moon.
Everything is toxic!
The drips, the air, the food.
Take your care into your own hands,
and they take you for a goon.
Discharge day is a mixed blessing,
there's so much to do - no fun!
But first up on the list to do
is undoing the damage done.
This is my entry to @ericvancewalton's eighth installment to his Memoir Monday initiative. Every Monday Eric posts a question about our lives for us to answer, in hopes that, after a year, the participants will have produced a valuable collection of memories. This week, we were tasked with talking about something we would have done differently in our lives.
In Eric's words:
Someday all that will be left of our existence are memories of us, our deeds, and words. It's up to you to leave as rich of a heritage as possible for future generations to learn from. So, go ahead, tell your stories!
My goodness, that's heartbreaking. I'm grateful that my father always warned us , as you say in your penultimate paragraph, to stay away from the medics and you'll live a long and healthy life,
If my kids hadn't been in public school, I would have. I tried, but they threatened to call CPS if I didn't get my son, the first to be diagnosed, to a gastroenterologist. When he got older, APS got involved, and we still couldn't exit the medical nightmare, lest I lose him to it even earlier. I learned an awful lot.
I'm so sorry you've experienced so much grief and loss in your life due to the medically tyrannical system we live in.
It's true that it's forced onto families in many school districts. CPS can and will get involved for lack of compliance to the medical requirements. It's not a choice when a real threat like this exists. It amazes me that the people who work for CPS see nothing wrong with certain aspects of their job, specifically regarding forcing medical compliance onto families who do not wish to participate, with threat of removing the child from the household.
How many lives do they ruin? Countless. The agency should be defunded and disbanded, The self righteousness that it is founded on does far more harm than good. I thought about writing that I would have homeschooled my children, but that I sent them to public schools, where most of my most serious problems originated, is just another way that I didn't listen to myself. I knew they were unhappy and uneducated there. I knew I felt powerless and miserable there.
Wow ! I hardly know what to say. You have truly been through so much.
I too believe many of the "cures" are worse than what ails people. I have seen multiple times when bad things went wrong with people I knew, including me, when taking what was prescribed by doctors. I am very VERY skeptical about all of it now.
I know some folks have been helped a lot and I'm glad it's not all useless, but it certainly is an unknown amount of gamble to take anything.
Western med is good if you get hit by a car and that sort of thing. I don't know anyone, however, who was successfully treated for a disease and left in perfect health - there are always lingering effects or effects that show up years later. If you develop an illness, there are many other medical avenues to choose from. We are discouraged from looking at those though, and of course "insurance" won't pay for most of them, so folks are funneled into using only allopathic methods, which are all toxic. We must take our healing into our own hands, to advance other avenues, which are being crippled as things are now. But happily, the covid con has increased the numbers of us who are trying new modes.
It was painful to read the articles, especially the loss and pain that you went through. Looks like man is forced to taked medications more, rather than healthy foods.
Yes. The goal seems to be to make all of us even sicker. And broke.
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Our natural immune system is starting to lose it's own memory on how to function correctly, protect our bodies!
Food supply is full of toxins ("more than 234 blaCTX-M allelic variants in E. coli ") and ("Salmonella infection is usually caused by eating raw or undercooked meat, poultry, and eggs or egg products or by drinking unpasteurized milk."), we live in blind faith of those who should be looking out for us don't.
Doctors are being dictated to by the Pharmaceutical world as to what drugs to use, how they compensate the medical insurance companies and doctors.
Your loss, grief, anger is warranted, we the people trust those who studied into medical field, we need to question more, now might be available to access, fact finding is a quagmire of smoke and mirrors.
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Thank you for the Luv.
Don't I know that! A while back, two of my (adult) kids were sick with Crohn's. They consulted five different GIs in two states for treatment for their very different symptoms, and all five prescribed the exact same drug. I found a website that could reveal how much money doctors get for prescribing certain drugs, and four out of the five had been compensated. It's BS.
I'm staying away from those quacks.
Have found over the years to question all the time, our old medical aid systems worked completely different as did the doctors, of late this has all changed for worse!
I'm very sorry you've had to deal with all of this sorrow and that the initiative is dredging up all of these hurtful memories. That's certainly not what I intended when I launched this. My family experienced the insidiousness of our medical system when my father died during the Covid pandemic of 2020. I lost faith in our system after I witnessed what they did to my dad in the nursing facility. My wife's ill now (likely from Covid or the vaccines-or both). We're six months into the ordeal now and after almost $1M in medical expenses, 20-25 imagining sessions, and endless appointments, we're no closer to an answer than we were in November. I'm convinced that the main focus of our medical system is to extract as much money as they can from the insurance companies/patients. I still believe there are well intentioned people in medicine but the system is rotten to the core.
I'm so sorry to hear about your wife's illness. One million bucks?! I think you've spoken of it before. There are doctors who treat vaccine/medical injuries, which sounds likely to me, but they don't take insurance. She might benefit from homeopathy, which is quite inexpensive and very effective, in my experience. I wish I had gone more heavily into that much sooner. I'm very into it now, learning as much as I can. Your wife would need someone really good. I could guide you a little there if you'd like.
I feel very bad for our medical personnel, who are all expensively educated by that rotten-ness. Many of them have left, and made themselves anew in other, health related, fields. I'm very proud of anyone who has the guts to step out. My heroes!
Thank you, it's been quite a challenging journey. Yes, she had so many MRI's and CT scans that we were already at nearly $250k just for imaging alone a couple of months into the ordeal. Thankfully insurance pays a portion. We have an appointment coming up with a long Covid specialist at the Mayo. Hoping we get some answers there. I'd be totally open to and would appreciate suggestions ([email protected])!
I feel bad for them too. It seems like we lost a lot of our tenured medical professionals during the pandemic. I can't blame them for stepping away. Our modern medical system isn't in place to heal anymore. Most of the people we encounter now are in their 20's and 30's.
I've stopped going to them now, but before that, I would seek out only the older doctors. While they were heavy on vaccination, at least they gave a bit of thought to the case before them. Now, medicine seem to be mostly just algorithmic thinking, as if they are dealing with a motor. Horrible. I know what you are going through. Those tests are sadistic and traumatic all by themselves, an aggravation of any illness. I'm so sorry.
Thank you! Yes, we've had the same experience. We've come across only two competent doctors in all of our appointments and ER visits. Most are just searching for the right med to alleviate symptoms instead of getting to the root cause. It's definitely the system that's broken, not the people. They're operating within the constraints of the system and I can tell it even frustrates some of them.
Oh my heart! I am one hundred percent on your page. Aside from the Bangkok shots at four and under, I grew up without any childhood vaccines and did the same for my daughter. I am certain she got the scamdemic shot but I didn't talk to her about it.
I was given some drug as a small baby and my teeth didn't develop with a proper outer coating. I am resentful but it could be worse. I tell people that I don't go to doctors even for my pain due to an injury. They give me that look.
I totally understand how you got dragged into the medical scene. They practically hold people at gunpoint.
Thanks for sharing your story. 😌
Thank you for understanding my story so well. Many of us have these stories, but we assume western medicine is not responsible for the trauma. It's a nifty trick they pulled on us, making us believe that health comes via injecting toxins into the flesh, or taking them down the gullet, smearing them all over our skin, blowing them up our noses, dropping them into our eyes, or shoving up our wazoos.
I'm always happy to learn about someone else who doesn't use those services. We will find other ways to health. I like to say I am offering my body up to science by not going to western doctors. I won't go to those doctors now unless it's life and death. I'm learning homeopathy now, and having amazing results.
Since I first read about your Son, my heart has always hurt for you. @owasco you are a very strong woman.
My Dad believed that the vaccines we got in school were no good for us, my youngest brother and sister never got them, I remember Dad fighting with the schools about it but he never let them get any shots and they still went to school, I am not sure how he did it.
I wonder what prompted your father to change. I love hearing stories like this.
I know people who did it, but I never gave it a second thought. Until all of them had gotten the disease (Crohn's) that Andrew Wakefield discovered was connected to the MMR vaccine. I won't get a single vaccine now. If one is required to go somewhere, I just won't go there. Vaccination is black magic.
That is a good question because the rest of us got the shots in school.
I got the first COVID shot and my arm hurt for days, when I got the 2nd one it was worse, I told my husband that I would never get another one, this thought just came to me, a year or so ago every time I looked down I started getting a numb feeling on the left side of my face, it would travel down my left arm, then my leg and I would fall, once on the floor I shake like I am having a seizure. They have run tons of tests and can not find anything wrong. Maybe the shots caused this.
Absolutely they did. Do not get any more vaccines, another would paralyze you. The doctors who have seen you probably know this, but they know, too, that if they acknowledge this is a vaccine injury, they will likely lose their jobs and never find another one, so they continue to lie to their patients. The covid con corrupted a great many of us. We must say no the next time.
Thank you, I will never get another one, even if that is not the cause of my falling, the pain and how my arm swelled was enough for me. It did not affect my husband.
Come to think of it, my husband's friend got the regular flu shot, before covid, and he could no longer walk, they ran tests on him and could not find the reason. He was very healthy before the flu shot.
Yes, they are all dangerous. All of them. Don't get any. When the covid con first started, I found evidence that most of the people who got covid had gotten flu shot prior to getting sick.
Also my oldest sister has Crohns
I'm sure she's taken so many drugs she is medically injured. Did she get the covid injections?
yes she did get the covid shots and yes she is on all kinds of meds and has had most of her intestines taken out, she has no control over her bowels.
I'm sorry to hear this. I don't know what to say. It doesn't sound good.
Thank you, she has had it for over 45 years she has good days and bad ones but she still gets around.
Awe @owasco, this must have been the most painful prompt you've ever had to write!
If only (words we're not supposed to use), but, if only you knew then, what you know now...
It's so awfully sad that we trusted the medical fraternity and the big pharma, believing we'd get better.
I am soooo saddened that you and so many of your loved ones have had to suffer like this.
You are one strong woman @owasco💔
PS I've not missed one Memoir Monday, except for this one, have to build up the courage to put it into words.
Yeah this was both the hardest one, ane the easiest one for me to write. It flew out. Thanks Lizelle, for your enduring support. I feel like you've got my back. xo
Always in my heart and thoughts @owasco ❣️
Aw, I'm so sorry for all your loss, for how the system failed you and your family. It's not easy to live in this world, that is controlled by those who care not for our well being and only wish to enslave us. Thank you for sharing all of this, for helping others to see, to bring more awareness.
Sending you a huge hug xxxxx