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Hello my dears, I am here again.
I hope everyone is doing well.
As you know we are in the month of mothers, many say that mother's day is every day, but is there that dedication every day as that day of mothers? I'm here reflecting a little!
I am not here to talk about Mother's Day, the only thing I can say is that we truly love them every day, as long as we have them by our side.
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Perhaps because it is Mother's Month, I have had this little girl, Jennifer, very present in my memory.
A very wonderful girl, dreamer, cheerful, with great ideas.
My husband's daughter, I met her when she was just 1 year old.
Very chubby, chubby, her hair was very straight, her eyes were a little big and her eyelashes were enviable hahahaha.
I have been thinking about her for several days. She doesn't leave my mind lately.
As I told you, maybe because it is the month of mothers.
My little girl, when she came into my life she was still breastfeeding, I also had a baby of the same age and when my husband took her home, so little at night I breastfed her. My baby was not my husband's biological child, and the girl was not my biological daughter.
Then I tell you the story of my husband 😁☺️.
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On weekends I would go to the house and the children enjoyed her company very much, they would play until late at night, we had to scold them so they would fall asleep.
I used to weave her hair super long, she helped me a lot with the chores around the house, I live with only men and her company on the weekends was very good.
Although truthfully speaking, at the beginning of the relationship I was not used to the girl, and the mom was a bit stormy, she used to get unbearable, she was very childish and somewhat immature 👀.
The truth of the matter is that little by little I got used to her, she grew up and we talked, we shared the times she was at home.
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In 2019, at ten years of age, the unexpected happened.
And yes it was unexpected!
The girl got sick, at that time there was a flu virus, she was taken to an outpatient clinic near her home, at that time Jennifer lived with an aunt Carmen. They sent her medicines to treat the virus, the girl did not get better, her bones and joints began to hurt, I remember that her knees hurt a lot, so much that she walked a little bent, almost dragging her feet.
My husband goes to pick her up to take her to another doctor, a doctor he trusts, his name is Elias, a very good doctor.
I have been attending a church for about 12 years. That day when my husband looks for the girl and takes her to the house, as soon as I saw the girl, something like a screen came to my mind, they call it a vision.
I could see the child's whole life, from when she was little, her whole trajectory, I saw her in a hospital, and I saw her death, maybe you don't believe me, I don't have to lie!
Everything happened very fast, it was a projection that left my mouth open, it was not a dream, I was not asleep, I was standing in the kitchen watching the girl, after I saw the whole episode I heard a voice that told me #leukemia, I could not believe what I was seeing or what I was hearing. I was stunned. I didn't tell anyone, I just started to investigate the symptoms of leukemia, decay, muscle pain, bruises on the skin and inflammation in the spleen.
I looked like the doctor, the symptoms coincided 👀, I only had to rule out the spleen inflammation, I still without saying anything, I was very afraid that all that I saw of the girl's disease were just my ideas.
The next day very early in the morning we took the girl to Dr. Elias for a consultation, I was there, very attentive. The doctor begins to check her and saw the bruises, when he analyzes her abdomen and gives a little pressure and the girl complains, indeed, the girl had an inflamed spleen. I got even more scared, the doctor told my husband that he had to do some more advanced tests for possible discards, he started talking about a theory there that I do not remember, the truth is that I could not stand more and I told the doctor if he implied that the girl had leukemia (half I could vent).
The doctor did not give any verdict, he just ordered some tests and referred the girl to the Samanes Hospital in Maracay, Venezuela. He recommended that we talk to a very good pediatrician at that hospital.
The child had been feeling bad for several days and had already undergone some routine tests. With those tests we took her to the hospital, located the pediatrician, she checked the child and saw the tests and left the child hospitalized. Not only that, she made a report for her to be transferred to the central hospital in the city, my husband contacted the girl's mother, to which she arrived immediately. I was in my mind rejecting that vision I had had (I still could not believe it).
Duró varios días en el hospital haciendo los respectivos procedimientos, análisis, exámenes para acá, exámenes para allá. Hasta que lograron dar con un resultado; la niña tenía Lyme (la enfermedad de la garrapata) 👀. Logró salir de alta con su respectivo tratamiento. Yo me logré quedar más tranquila, yo decía que si eran cosas mías eso que había visto y oido, y es que yo hablaba en mi mente y decía; Señor (Dios) ¿leucemia? ¿Sabes lo que es una leucemia? Y daba las gracias que solo era esa enfermedad y no era leucemia.
Pasada una semana la niña vuelve a recaer, se puso muy mal, su abdomen inflamado, sus rodillas aún más adoloridas, el tratamiento que le medicarón no estaba dando resultados. La vuelven a llevar al hospital, vuelve a quedar hospitalizada, le vuelven a hacer más exámenes, no salía nada, hasta que deciden hacerle una punción lumbar y mandar la muestra a caracas.
En ese momento fue cuando hablé con mi esposo y le comenté todo lo que había visto y escuchado, no fue nada fácil, mi esposo se puso triste y me dijo que porque no le había contado nada y yo le expliqué todo aquel miedo que sentía que solo fueran cosas mías.
Los resultados tardaban una semana en entregarse pero el resultado solo tardó 3 días.
¿Y a qué no sabe? El resultado de la punción lumbar arrojó #leucemia a un 96% en todo su organismo 💔
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She spent several days in the hospital doing the respective procedures, analysis, tests here and there. Until they managed to get a result; the girl had Lyme (tick disease) 👀. She was discharged with her respective treatment. I was able to be calmer, I was asking myself if it was something I had seen and heard, and I spoke in my mind and said; Lord (God), leukemia? Do you know what leukemia is? And I was thankful that it was only that disease and it was not leukemia.
After a week the girl relapsed again, she became very ill, her abdomen was swollen, her knees were even more painful, the treatment she was given was not working. They took her back to the hospital, she was hospitalized again, they did more tests, nothing came out, until they decided to do a lumbar puncture and send the sample to Caracas.
At that moment I talked to my husband and told him everything I had seen and heard, it was not easy, my husband became sad and told me why I had not told him anything and I explained all the fear that I felt that it was just my own.
The results took a week to be delivered but the result only took 3 days.
And what does it not taste like? The result of the lumbar puncture showed #leukemia at 96% in his whole organism 💔
Yo me quedé traumada, todo aquello que había visto y oído era verdad, definitivamente Dios si habla, a mí me habló, y seguirá hablando, no solo me habló, me mostró lo que ocurriría.
Comenzó todo el proceso de las quimioterapia, nada fácil. Quedó hospitalizada por un tiempo indefinido, hasta que las quimioterapia comenzaran hacer algún efecto.
Las quimios como tal no estaba haciendo su efecto, pero ella tenía mucha fe en que sanaría, en la habitación donde estaba hospitalizada habían otros niños padeciendo de la misma enfermedad, había un niño llamado Jesús, me apegué un poco a el durante la estadía en la habitación (no supe mas de él), su mejor amiga Geovanna (ya fallecida 💔) y Bryanna que todavia está en pie de lucha, sin quimioterapia 🙏🏻.
Recuerdo que a Geovanna se le comenzó a caer su cabello, y Yennifer para apoyarla tambien se lo cortó, fue un acto muy bonito.
En ese mismo año (2019) pasamos todos justos las navidades, Yenifer estaba de alta y solo iba semanal a recibir su tratamiento, ya la leucemia habia bajado mucho su porcentaje, si mal no recuerdo lo tenia en un 60%.
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I was traumatized, everything I had seen and heard was true, God definitely does speak, He spoke to me, and He will continue to speak, He not only spoke to me, He showed me what would happen.
The whole process of chemotherapy began, not an easy one. She was hospitalized for an indefinite period of time, until the chemotherapy started to have some effect. In the room where she was hospitalized there were other children suffering from the same disease, there was a boy named Jesus, I got a little attached to him during the stay in the room (I never heard from him again), her best friend Geovanna (now deceased 💔) and Bryanna who is still fighting, without chemotherapy 🙏🏻.
I remember Geovanna's hair started to fall out, and Yennifer to support her also cut it, it was a very nice act.
In that same year (2019) we all just spent Christmas, Yenifer was discharged and was only going weekly to receive her treatment, the leukemia had already lowered its percentage, if I remember correctly she had it at 60%.
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Para ese mismo año, la fundaciónHoracioestrada realizó un concurso de belleza para todas las niñas, haciendo así su sueño realidad de sentirse y vestir como princesas. Jenifer en ese entonces quedó como 3era finalista, fue una noche muy movida, pasarela, trajes de baños y vestido de gala.
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That same year, the Horacio Estrada Foundation held a beauty pageant for all the girls, making their dream of feeling and dressing like princesses come true. Jenifer at that time was the 3rd finalist, it was a very busy night, catwalk, swimsuit and ball gown.
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Año 2020, comienzan los rumores del #Covid19, recuerdo que las muertes en Italia eran como dice mi cuñado, en cantidades industriales.
La niña vuelve a quedar hospitalizada, al parecer el tratamiento no estaba haciendo el efecto adecuado, ya yo tenía mayor comunicación con la mamá de Jennifer, nos turnábamos, ella, mi esposo y yo, Mariela (la mamá de la niña, estaba embarazada, dió a luz a un bebé muy bonito, mientras ella estaba hospitalizada en el 5to piso, nosotros estábamos en el 7mo piso con Jenifer, lo bueno fue que la niña logró visitar a su mamá y conocer a su nuevo hermanito, ya Mariela debía estar en reposo y yo me quedaba con la niña por las noches, mi esposo en el día, también se quedaba la tía Carmen, también la prima luz Marina, la tía Yesica, en realidad Jenifer era muy muy querida por toda su familia, a veces estábamos todos reunidos afuera del hospital hasta altas horas de la noche, compartiendo.
El 6 de marzo de ese año Jennifer cumplió sus 11 años, entre todos colaboramos para celebrarlo, ese día compartimos todos con ella, a pesar de estar hospitalizada el doctor que la estaba tratando le dió permiso de salir unos días y así poder celebrar sus cumpleaños, y esos momentos de refrigerio eran muy necesarios, ya que las quimioterapia eran muy fuertes, había una tan fuerte que le ponía todo su cuerpo muy caliente, como si tuviera mucha fiebre, era tanto lo caliente que le quemaba toda su boca y garganta, duraba días sin poder dormir, comer ni hablar bien, sus labios se ponían muy agrietados por las altas temperaturas que le causaba ese medicamento, en varias ocasiones yo estuve ahí con ella cuando recibía el tratamiento y mi cabello se me estaba comenzando a caer, les digo que ese tratamiento es muy fuerte, pero una de las cosas que más me sorprendía de Jennifer fue su valor y el optimismo con que veía las cosas, era la mas alegre de la habitación, era la que animaba a los otros niños.
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Year 2020, the rumors of #Covid19 begin, I remember that the deaths in Italy were as my brother-in-law says, in industrial quantities.
The girl was hospitalized again, apparently the treatment was not having the right effect, I already had more communication with Jennifer's mother, we took turns, she, my husband and I, Mariela (the girl's mother, she was pregnant, she gave birth to a very beautiful baby, while she was hospitalized on the 5th floor, we were on the 7th floor with Jenifer, The good thing was that the girl was able to visit her mother and meet her new baby brother, Mariela had to be resting and I stayed with the girl at night, my husband during the day, aunt Carmen also stayed with her, also her cousin Luz Marina, aunt Yesica, in fact Jenifer was very loved by all her family, sometimes we were all gathered outside the hospital until late at night, sharing.
On March 6th of that year Jennifer turned 11 years old, we all collaborated to celebrate it, that day we all shared with her, in spite of being hospitalized the doctor who was treating her gave her permission to go out for a few days so she could celebrate her birthday, and those moments of refreshment were very necessary, because the chemotherapy was very strong, there was one so strong that it made her whole body very hot, as if she had a high fever, it was so hot that it burned her mouth and throat, She would last days without being able to sleep, eat or speak well, her lips would become very chapped because of the high temperatures caused by the medicine, on several occasions I was there with her when she was receiving the treatment and my hair was beginning to fall out, I tell you that this treatment is very strong, but one of the things that surprised me the most about Jennifer was her courage and the optimism with which she saw things, she was the most cheerful in the room, she was the one who encouraged the other children.
Un día mi esposo llega un poco decaído, el hematólogo, el especialista que estaba a cargo de la niña le da una noticia, y era que el tratamiento no le estaba haciendo absolutamente nada de efecto a la niña, le dijo que posiblemente la niña durara una semana más, la leucemia había invadido de nuevo todo su organismo, nosotros como personas de fe siempre nos manteníamos aferrados a un milagro.
Recuerdo que el 16 de marzo, un día domingo, quedamos de acuerdo con Mariela en que yo me quedaría con la niña, cuando llegué al hospital me encuentro con la sopresa que la niña estaba muy muy mal, me sorprendió mucho porque yo la deje el dia anterior bien, pasé todo el dia con ella.
Cuando veo a la niña tan mal y la cara de Mariela salgo de inmediato a avisarle a mi esposo. La niña estaba agonizando 😓. La leucemia habia invadido su cerebro, le avisamos a los familiares llegaron de inmediato al hospital, la niña no reconocía a nadie, ahí estube con Mariela y mi esposo hasta la noche luego tuve que salir porque yo no podía permanecer más en la habitación, ahí dejé a mi esposo y a la mamá de la niña. Ya en la madrugada me tuvieron que llevar a mi casa, esa noche no tenía nada de sueño, y para despejar la mente me puse a lavar una ropa, los niños se habían quedado en la casa de mi mami, ya a las 6:30 a 7:00 aproximadamente mi esposo me da la noticia que la niña había fallecido 💔. Ese mismo día había corrido la noticia que el Coronavirus había entrado al país, y habían algunos inconvenientes para hacerle el servicio fúnebre, pero como todo eso del covid era muy recién logramos dar con una funeraria donde se logró velar.
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One day my husband arrived a little down, the hematologist, the specialist who was in charge of the girl, gave him some news, and it was that the treatment was not having any effect on the girl, he told him that the girl would probably last another week, the leukemia had invaded her whole organism again, we as people of faith always held on to a miracle.
I remember that on March 16, a Sunday, we agreed with Mariela that I would stay with the girl, when I arrived at the hospital I was surprised to find that the girl was in very bad shape, I was very surprised because I had left her well the day before, I spent the whole day with her.
When I saw the girl so bad and Mariela's face I immediately went out to tell my husband. The girl was in agony 😓. The leukemia had invaded her brain, we told the relatives, they arrived immediately at the hospital, the girl did not recognize anyone, I was there with Mariela and my husband until the night, then I had to leave because I could not stay in the room anymore, I left my husband and the girl's mother there. That night I had no sleep at all, and to clear my mind I started to wash some clothes, the children had stayed at my mom's house, and at approximately 6:30 to 7:00 my husband gave me the news that the girl had died 💔. That same day the news had spread that the Coronavirus had entered the country, and there were some inconveniences to do the funeral service, but as all that covid was very recently we managed to find a funeral home where we were able to watch over her.
Cómo todo momento de perdida de un familiar, es muy difícil de aceptar que alguien tan allegado y tan pequeño haya partido de este mundo terrenal y que mas nunca volverás a ver.
Este año fuera cumplido 15 años y de seguro estuviera más grande que yo jajajajaja... Todos me repasan, soy muy chiquita.
¿Que quiero decir con todo esta historia?
No por ser creyentes fielmente en Dios quiere decir que todas las oraciones serán contestadas de manera positiva, la niña estaba rodeada de familiares cristianos, creyentes en Dios, muchas personas oraron por la sanidad de la niña, pero yo siempre he tenido muy presente algo y es que nuestra fé nunca será mayor que el propósito de Dios. Cada persona tiene un tiempo predeterminado en la tierra y todo tiene un principio y un fin, muchas veces no nos gustan los finales tan prematuros, en realidad nunca nos gustará el final de la existencia de un ser querido, pero debemos vivir con eso, nacimos para morir tarde o temprano.
Queda de nosotros vivir de la mejor manera, dejando siempre una sonrisa, ayudando a los más necesitados sin esperar nada a cambio.
Saludos y bendiciones 😌 🙏🏻 ✨ 💖
English version
Like every moment of loss of a family member, it is very difficult to accept that someone so close and so small has left this earthly world and that you will never see again.
This year he would have been 15 years old and surely he was older than me hahahahahaha.... Everyone is looking at me, I am so small.
What do I mean with all this story?
Just because we are faithful believers in God does not mean that all prayers will be answered in a positive way, the girl was surrounded by Christian family members, believers in God, many people prayed for the girl's healing, but I have always had something in mind and that is that our faith will never be greater than God's purpose. Each person has a predetermined time on earth and everything has a beginning and an end, many times we do not like such premature endings, in fact we will never like the end of the existence of a loved one, but we must live with that, we were born to die sooner or later.
It remains for us to live in the best way, always leaving a smile, helping those in need without expecting anything in return.
Greetings and blessings 😌 🙏🏻 ✨ 💖
✓ Banner and dividers elaborated in canva. ✓ photos edited in Polis.✓ Gifs made in gif editor.
Wow que terrible desenlace para esta pequeña 🥺 solo dios sabe lo que hace y bueno a veces nos cuesta aceptar su voluntad🥺
Aceptar la voluntad de Dios no es fácil, pero asu vez es buena, agradable y perfecta.