really good u r great @reddust and i also more respect u and if u think and have negativity about u i think that person only for hated from me and whole steemit great comunity only some good person in this in my followers like u and u r great from all them...be happy always with ur family always..and also ur story is sad to hear about ur father death and after ur life is with some pains and ur bravery with u stand yourself is only for respected and appriciate @reddust i really love u
@shencoin my family is happy, my 4 children are healthy and successful adults. They saw my struggles to let go of the past and know it can be done. I used to miss my father something terrible but I had a dream long ago just before I started meditation. I was walking down a long hall with many doors on both sides. I open one door and looked in and saw a family, a mother and two children watching TV. They said my father was with them now but I could visit him he was in another room and pointed to a door. I walked in and open the door and my dad sat in a chair in the middle of a dark room with a light shining on him surrounded by darkness. I ran to him with my arms out and started shrinking to the small child I was when he died. He grabbed me up in his arms and held me tight. He told me he would always love me and I could see him any time I needed too. I woke up crying but it was happy tears and I no long missed my father in a painful way and felt no need to see him again. I had finally let go and accepted my fathers death.