Recently, a lot has been going on in my mind. I'm depressed, I couldn't say this is what happened to me. Happiness is just far away from me.
I couldn't decide what is it that I want to do, I certainly can't comprehend anything. I felt like some part of me is giving way to anxiety. I couldn't trust myself nor confide in another. I love another, but I hate myself.
(
I'm not sick physically, but I'm emotionally derail. I just pray this moment could pass. I'm sort of words
I managed to go out today, wanted to visit a friend just to wade away time and possibly quench my unstable mind.
I was afraid to board public transport due to the coronavirus pandemic, I never wanted to die even though I'm emotionally down. I concluded that if there is life then I certainly have hope of getting over the turbulence of life. So I took a motorcycle instead, on my way I noticed people still open their shops selling, I said to myself what is going to happened if a lot of people contracted the disease.
Death is the surest that can ever happen to man, nothing else is certain. I just hope it won't get to that because it will affect everyone of us. Although our governor didn't shut down market totally, he only imposed curfew from dusk to dawn so people can still go about doing their stuff.
Don't worry bro. It's just for the main time. You will get over it. I hope it is not the that is making life boring to you.
Even when the government said total lockdown, some people are still gathering and opening their shops.
Of course. Like seriously. Depression won't let me rest. Having lot of things to do but couldn't just do any of it.
Much of it is just propaganda. I doubt that the virus can survive in warm countries. Be grateful that you at least can go out and spend the day outside. Physical movement helps a lot in fighting depression and anxiety, and another thing that got under my attention recently is porn. I don't know if you watch it or not but it seems playing a bad role in one's mental health.
There is a lot more of indecision that I'm battling with. Want many things done, but lost in all.
Try and accomplish them one by one. I have made the same mistake multiple times. Or see what you really need, or want so you wont chase dreams that are not worth the effort.
Most times, we venture into a business or stuff because we see others doing well at it or what someone, relative, ask us to do maybe because it has a lot of advantage or more money involved.