Dear Diary: I Don't Want My Photo In My Funeral To Be Posted When I Die

Here in my country when you die the funeral services will ask for your photo from your relatives and they will post it in front of your home just to let anyone who had died. I mean that would be okay for me but for my current appearance to be used and posted is not a thing that I will not like even though the fact that I am dead already by then.

That is why I asked my mother for her not to give such photos to the funeral services, but she said that she will give the best photo that I had which is before my face got deformed by my Leontiasis condition.

I also asked my mother to put a surgical mask on me and to shut my mouth because the inflamed gums always makes it to gape wide open always even though you put a handkerchief around my jaw and head.

I really do not want a wake, I do not even want funeral parlors to touch my body for that matter because the way they butcher bodies in the embalming process is really not pleasant to see as they cut you from neck to navel and taking off the internal organs, cleaning and soaking them in formaldehyde before placing them back in and sewing you all up again.

I also do not want to get buried underground because it frightens me with that idea because if you could imagine yourself trapped in a casket is really a phobic scenario. Well if I would be buried I want to be just above ground in a concrete crypt where someday it will crack open and I would come out to meet the Lord Jesus above.

I know it is silly for me to think about these things even though I would never cared for anything after my death but I can extend my will even after my death because of the unusual circumstances that happened to me lately here. It all just came to my mind after seeing the wake of my deceased friend which had been in dialysis for 12 years, may she rest in peace.