Friday, 29th of September 2023 [89]
I want to say YES, of course!
But…
In truth I can’t even say if I will be here, on Earth in 5 years time. I know… sounds a bit pessimistic. I don’t mean to be. I’m just realistic.
I know myself well enough to know that I just don’t know. I have a tendency to dig deep into something new that excites me and I want to learn all about it and stick with it for some time, then burn out and let it slide.
The only thing that I found in life that really still excites me to this day, even though I first started it when I was a child is DANCING 💃😁
That said, I really want tk say: yes, I’ll be here. Because the plan is to be here not only for 5 years, but for much longer than that. The plan is to grow my Hive wallet, so one day the passive income funds my retirement and I sincerely hope that Hive blockchain will be here for that long!
I wrote on a few different platforms over the years. I really do love writing. I’ve been writing for myself, to document my daily life ever since I was a 12 years old teenager. Nobody paid me to do this. Nobody set the goals. Nobody forced me to do this. I did however feel a strong need for writing and I remember my school friends loved reading my diaries ☺️
I remember drafting these on loose sheets of paper and then carefully re-writing it into my designated notebook without any mistakes. I remember highlighting names and dates in colourful pens. I still have that first one to this day and I love reading it every few years when I stumble upon it.
See, I want my Hive diary to be paperless, blockchain version of that old diary. I want to be able to read it in 5, 10, 20, 30 years. I want it to remind me about who I once was, about all the adventures I once experienced. I want to read about my past struggles and challenges and how I overcame them and how I grew through them to that future me who will be reading this.
And as I write this, I feel a new energy coming in, a renewed will to write. Not for the sake of upvotes. Not to race after some more or less realistic goals. For MY FUTURE SELF.
I wanted to say that I’m not really sure what went wrong? Why did I stop writing? Not completely, but not regularly either. But I think I do know. It’s the goals and the pressure I put on myself to achieve them. The more I push myself, the easier I break under my own pressure.
The fact is though, that I simply love writing and that I also love reading my own writing 😂 I remember a friend of mine once sent me an article I once wrote when I felt really good about my life. He sent me this to remind me who I am, while I was plodding through another dark patch. I remember it made me cry. For more than one reasons, which I won’t get into right now.
While driving to my favourite dance school with my friend yesterday, she asked me how is work.
‘Same old?’ she asked.
The answer was… actually, no! At work, things chaged around quite drastically. I’ll probably write about it in another post, but to cut the story short - in a few months I went from despising and avoiding my new boss to him sending me an email that I’m doing fantastic work lately!
Did he change over night?
No! I changed my approach to him and that in turn healed our relationship and made him see I’m really good at what I do.
The reason why I mention this is because I also just realised that I need to change my approach to writing. Setting goals doesn’t motivate me nowhere near as well as other people. What really motivates me is the love I feel for what I do.
Dancing is of course the best example, where I go through various obstacles just to find myself on that dance floor for a few good dances. A few moments of real connection with another human being and music. It’s like a moving meditation for me.
I often find excuses for not writing:
I’m tired,
Ecency picture servers are not working,
I’ll do it tomorrow,
I feel too empty to write,
I can’t be bothered to do editing,
I want to relax after hard day at work,
My health is more important.
Granted. When I was 12, I didn’t have to work, I didn’t have health issues. There was a level of editing involved even back then however. I always liked things looking nice in my diary. I also must have been tired after spending most of the day at school and then doing my homework.
Writing back then also was a form of relaxation for me though. A lot was happening in my life. A lot more than what child should go through. Writing was my channel of expression. The place where I could pour it all out. It was not meant for anyone’s eyes than mine’s even though eventually it ended up being read by my school mates.
Predominantely I was doing it for myself and I never expected any rewards for doing it. I felt a real need and enjoyment in writing.
That is the place I really need to go back to. Writing for myself. To get stuff off my chest. To document the happy and the sad days.
That said… where will my wallet be in 2028?
There will be shit loads of HP, HBD, Leo, EDS and ALIVE tokens in my wallet. At least from where I’m standing right now. Cause many things can change in 5 years. Maybe Hive will change into a new blockchain and there will be no HP, but AB that matters. Who knows?
Assuming things will be more or less the same, I am hoping to for a steady progress towards my retirement pot. 3k HP a year will land me at 20k HP in 2028. That’s not huge, but like I said - I really don’t want to be restrained with the monetary goals. While I’ll most likely continue to set them every year, I don’t want them to be my main motivation to write. It just doesn’t work for me.
I want to enjoy writing again.
I want my writing to touch people’s hearts, make them laugh, cry, inspire or… feel whatever emotions are relevant to the post.
I want to meet more and more interesting people and make REAL connections.
I want to keep the quality of my posts at the highest possible standard I can achieve in a given moment.
And I really, really want to be able to get back to those entries of mine when I’m old and wrinkly and re-live those momens again.
So no pressure HIVE, but we need to keep this going for much longer than 5 years!
Until next time 💙
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Oh yes we do… it needs to keep going a bit longer.
Let’s hope when we are old and wrinkly we still can access hive and read back on our lives and adventures. It would be wonderful.
It is good you changed the approach with your boss. It seems to have worked 😊 well done.
Yes, don’t be to harsh with goals. Get back to liking to write, even if it is just for you sweetie.
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Have a fantastic weekend 🤗🥰🌺
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! help(no space) to get help on Hive. InfoI totally hear you - it is better to write for writing sake and because you are driving to write and not solely for a goal. I have set goals to recently because otherwise I might not write at all. The reasons you gave above are familiar- there is a lot to do offline. When I come online it should be fun and not a chore. However, the goals helped me with structure but as blogging a hobby - I never want to feel burden when I do so.
Like you, I want to be able to revisit my blogs in later years to enjoy them. I told my children that it will be a catalogue of my stories for them and future generations.
I hear you Monika. One has to write for themselves not for goals, monetary value, or for someone else. We have to do it because we like it. When we start to force ourselves we lose interest by burning out. I guess in a weird way you could say writing is another relationship if we pressure ourselves to much with it. I just say keep writing when you want to it will be good reading pleasure for me when you do so💙 💙
You’re the bestest Bob! I always look forward to opening notifications from you. You’re the perfect example of people I want to make connections with in life - real or virtual. Those friendships you randomly stumble upon and make a lasting impression.
Sending you lots of love, as I’m slowly starting to feel like myself again 💙
PS. Almost end of the month. I think we’ll get that PUM badge together this time 😍😍😍
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That's what I forgot to say 🤣😂🤣 Yup just a wake for me. Congratulations I'm so proud of you for that with everything you have been through you have a perfect chart 🎉 👏 I got a crazy weekend to come one that goes right into the start of the next week. So I'm looking way ahead to next Saturday. Haircut time my highlight of this weekend, haha
!LOLZ 😂😂That’s a great highlight 😉 I hope the busy weekend is not just working though!
Just powered up, so finally the badge again after half a year 😁 It has been quite a month, but in a way, I feel like I really needed this to get really bad and to fall on my face from a great hight, because I was becoming complacent. Back in a day, looking for alternative solutions to any health issues was my go to, but this year hit me hard and I had no energy for anything. I almost accepted that I will live with allergies from now on without looking deeply into the root cause of this. So I needed it to get worse to wake me up and look for that holistic healer, as it opened the door for other possible solutions ☺️
Anyway… had my breakfast and sipping my green tea now and I’m off to London to dance in an hour 😍💙
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Oh I'm up early here. Almost done with my first really large cup of coffee. I will need the caffeine today. Unfortunately it's all work this weekend. All mandatory overtime. Too much going on with work and top of it the government shutdown is looking. It effects me because I am a government employee. Well a rant and complain post coming up I suppose with my HPUD details. I should start now so I can finish by tomorrow, lol
Well what better way to kick off your Saturday than to do your favorite passion. Oh the health issues, I have got a bothering pain in my right shoulder. I know I should follow up my doctor. Doc gave me medication but it's not working. The second recommendation was to set up physical therapy if medicine doesn't work. I feel that's not going to work because it hurts with almost everything I do. I had some similiar thing happen with a tendon in my left leg. That was worse actually I didn't seek help until almost a year later. Same process medicine and physical therapy. Than MRI revealed I tore a legiment and it was almost healed. Oh the body getting older, haha.
We are a like in a sense waiting for our health to reach a point before doing something about it. I wasn't always like this either. Now I get stubborn thinking I will get sidelined which I don't want to happen. If it's not just finances we have to make decisions on right? 🤣 Let's both pledge to a good bill of health. !HUG !LUV !LOLZ 💙💙
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All we have is one day at a time. 2028 is a long way off.
True dat! Fingers crossed we’ll all still be here in 5 years and still enjoying ourselves 💙
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Me too. I think a lot of us old timers enjoy it. I'm still here nearly five years on and can't imagine NOT being here. I hope you are too.
Five years is a long time, yet passes so quickly. Life is what we make it, often those around us will enjoy others don't see the value! !LUV
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! help(no space) to get help on Hive. InfoIt sure passes in a blink of an eye 👁️
Thanks for stopping by 💙
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Enjoy, time definitely never sits still....
Thanks Ewcia @ewkaw my hive angel 😇 😘💙
You're very welcome :)
Sadly no new mushrooms to post about this Friday! 🙈😂
Hahaha they will come when the right time comes :D
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Hahaha I was hoping you are :D :D
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I can relate with you! The difference about us is that as I get older, I get lazy to read and write. Its easy for me talk that during my younger days I can't speak my mind. Its absolutely opposite.
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We’re all different! That’s the variety in life and I love meeting people with different approaches than my own, as we can learn from each other. Thank you for stopping by 💙
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I would love to say yes, but five years is a long time.... Anything can happen!
That’s true. 5 years ago I didn’t even know Hive existed, but it did. I hope it will be here for many more to come 🤩
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How nice it will be that hive reminds us who we were in the past years, the activities we did and much more. The most exciting thing here for me is that we get to build a lasting friendship.
Best wishes for the contest!
That is so true. I have already made many wonderful new people through Hive and I am hoping to meet many more too. Thank you for stopping by 💙
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Writing not for anything else but for you. I love this, sis! And let's hope to be around here as long as we are alive and kicking.
Sometimes, I go back to my old posts and re-read them. I would laugh, let out a tear, or say "Oh... did I really write those?" or "Did that happen?" and such.
Cheers, sis to many more years ahead!
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I'm glad that the change in how you view your boss helped to heal the professional relationship you both have. Maybe it can be that way with writing: just make small shift that's big enough to make the difference you want to see.
Even if the results aren't the same as what you had in the past, that's OK. Who knows, they may even be better!
I mist say that was a huge achievement for me. Usually when someone gets on my nerves at work as much as he did, I hand in my notice and run to another place, but this time I decided to break this vicious cycle and I’m still surprised that it worked 😁
With writing I hope that as I start feeling better, the writing will start flowing again. It’s been challenging few months with all the health issues, but I feel like I’m slowly regaining my strength after changing my diet and tweaking my thought processes 😉
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I say you did the right thing in breaking the cycle by adjusting how you relate to your work boss. It also helps knowing from the beginning that the work boss is like that; you know what to expect, so you can plan and adjust as needed. I'm glad it turned around in a big-time way for you!
As for the health challenges you have, I wish you the best in overcoming them. Abandon those things which hinder rather than help, and keep doing whatever is working for you. In addition, use your mind as a supplemental tool for bringing about your healing and restoring your happiness. 😎
Dancing isn't my thing, although long ago I took some dancing classes. What I can say is that there are 3 kinds of dancing I would love to do with the right partner who would also be my instructor: tango, flamenco, and whatever style it was which Prince used to dance on stage. 😉
nice post. i am guessing you will be around on Hive for quite a while yet. best wishes.
I will most definitely try! Btw, I just sent you 1 Unit of HSBI for the code blue the other week 😉
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