Contemplating. That's what I'm doing right now. Contemplate something. Ahh, more precisely contemplating someone. Someone I admire so much, who can make my mind fly somewhere, which makes me stunned and who makes me fall in love. After knowing him for a long time, I realized how much I had fallen in love with him. Fall in love with his smile. I remember now, that smile. Since seeing that smile, I've realized I will never be able to forget it. But all this time I just considered it normal.
Until an incident awakens me. For the first time I saw him cry. I do not know what caused it, but somehow I became sad to see it at the time. There was something inside me that made me want to cheer him up. I tried to approach him, but I was late. Someone had been beside him. Embrace him and say something to him. And before long, slowly I saw him smile.
I feel something in the heart is cracked. Am I jealous? I don't know for sure. But clearly, after seeing the incident, I went straight home. I go home and contemplate my situation. Why does this heart hurt so much? Am I really jealous? But why am I jealous? I long contemplated my situation. Finding out the answers to all the questions that have sprung up in my mind.
And this morning I just realized. Geez, why am I so stupid? I just realized. I feel happy every time I see him smile and make me smile with him. And I feel sad when I see him sad. I'm jealous of seeing him with other people. I think I'm the one who should cheer him up and make him smile again, not someone else. And I realized too late that I had fallen in love with him.
"Adly? Are you daydreaming? "
That sound? I turned my gaze towards the origin of the voice. It turned out that my estimate did not miss. The voice is indeed his. I smiled looking at him. Just seeing it makes me like this. Yes, I really have fallen into the abyss of love.
"Hello??!! Adly, what's wrong with you? Surprise you? " the look on his face looked surprised and worried. Geez? I gasped.
"Ehh, elo. Sory, Na. Did you just come? " why am I wandering like this anyway? Looks like I was awkward.
"Yes, about five minutes. And you know what? I saw the person whose eyes did not blink for five minutes. Isn't that great? " the story was a little amazed and surprised. Automatically I'm also curious.
"Oh, yes? Who is it?". I saw him shrug his forehead, then answered, "that person is now talking to me." he said while pointing his index finger at me.
"What? I? Is it really me? " I said somewhat surprised and did not believe. I can't believe he noticed me since he entered the class earlier. Delighted in my heart.
He sighed and said again, "oh dear, Adly. So were you really daydreaming? What are you daydreaming about so much? Come on, admit it? "
I smile. Here it is. The girl I love. Or rather I just realized that I love him. Selenna Anissa. His cheerful nature, which dragged me to join cheerful. "Ah no. I don't daydream about anyone? " I say lying.
Selena raised an eyebrow, like thinking for a while. "Adly Deriandra. You certainly know, I'm not an easy person to be fooled. From my observation, you are daydreaming. And your daydream is the daydream of people who are in love. You are daydreaming of a woman. Is not it?"
Whoa ??? how is he ... oh, I forgot. Selenna is not easy to be fooled. He always knows what someone is thinking. And now he managed to guess what was on my mind. Does he know too that I have thought of him a long time ago? But while I better answer as is. "You're great, Selenna. Yes, I am indeed in love with someone girl. "
I caught a glimpse of Selenna's face. He was shocked. Honestly, I've never seen him so surprised. But only for a while. Next he just answered in a rather hoarse voice, but still as cheerful as his initial tone. "And you don't want to tell me. Adly, you and I have been friends for almost two years. And this is certainly good news, remembering that as long as I know you, you have never told me about women even though I was. And now you want to hide it. Come on, Adly. Story please. Do I know the person? " he spoke at length.
"Sure, Selenna. I will tell you. But not now. I will tell it when the time is right. And one more thing, is the problem you know the person or not. Yes, you even know the girl, Selenna. " Because that girl is you.
Selenna's eyes widened. He did not think that he knew the girl who made Adly fall in love. Even Adly said, he was very familiar with it. Means that the girl is not far from her life. And in a slightly disappointed tone, Selenna said, "Very well. I will wait for your story. And I might be a little curious before you tell me who your girl is. And remember, Adly. Don't keep your identity too long. " He said passionately, and rather emphasized the intonation of your girl's words.
I smiled again with a small laugh, then answered. "OK." He smiled as he gave me a thumbs up and for the next he went following the steps of his friends. Hmm, for now, let me hold this feeling. Let him know for himself that he is the girl I meant. Hopefully he can read my mind on this one.
Selenna daydreaming. It's strange, he doesn't usually like to daydream, because that's really not his habit. Selenna just stirred the drink she had ordered and stared blankly ahead while leaning on her chin.
"Na, what's wrong with you? Does it hurt? " Diana, her friend asked. Selenna just shook her head listlessly. He himself realized he was lethargic when walking towards the canteen. Precisely when leaving class.
"What's wrong with you, Na? Is there a problem? Tell me. Who knows, I can help. "
"I'm fine, Di," Selenna answered with a rather forced smile. Diana saw that, but didn't want to ask further. Diana knew Selenna's attitude. Although Selenna answered with the words 'it's okay', but actually she hid the problem.
"Yes, if that's the case, you'll finish your drink. Soon going in. "
Selenna nodded. But keep stirring the drink again. His mind flew back. Turning back a moment ago, when Adly told her that Adly had fallen in love. Somehow he felt like ... ah, there was no way he could be jealous. After all, Adly was nobody. Selenna should be happy if her friend could finally fall in love too, not a g * y that Selenna had been thinking about. But his heart felt like rumbling. Sick.
"Selenna ?? !!"
Selenna gasped, "eh, why Di?"
"See, you're daydreaming again. Hurry up and finish your drink! The bell is ringing. " Diana spoke hurriedly. Selenna was in a hurry too. He stood up from his chair and pulled Diana's arm jogging to their class, leaving his drink still intact.
I was surprised to see Selenna today. What happened? Why suddenly he seems to avoid me. He was also more silent. Not much to say.
"Selenna ..."
"Hmm," he just muttered. I shifted my chair a little towards him. "Why? Does it hurt? " He looked at me sharply. Then he laughed,
"Haha, you don't really care about me. Ask me if I'm sick or not anymore. "
"Yes, I have seen you staying in a lot more with a tangle-shaped look every time I talk to you. And I think you avoid me. Why, I have something wrong? " Selenna paused again, then shook her head slowly. "I'm fine, bro. I don't avoid you either. Maybe it's just your feeling, "he said rather curtly.
I can only be silent, return to my place and arrange the books that are on my desk. This time I take a break to read chemistry books because there will be tests later.
"I want to go to the library. Are you coming in? " Selenna asked me without turning her head. He is still busy with his books. I looked at him in surprise. "To the library? What are you doing? We want a test, Na? "
"I also know. We learn it in the library. Do you want to?"
"I'll just be in class. Besides, you really want to go to the library. Usually just stop by, you don't want to. "
"Yes, just looking for a new atmosphere. Well, then I'll go first then. " Selenna smiled and left me in class. Oh, I always like seeing her smile like that. I looked at his back from behind, which then disappeared after passing through the classroom door.
Turned my eyes back to the book. Turned it over to understand its contents, until someone came and took a seat right beside me. I looked away to see that person, and suddenly my breath seemed to stop right then when I found out who was beside me. He looked at me and smiled.
"Hi, Adly. You are diligent in reading books. "
"My class has a test. What are you doing here? " I have tried to keep my voice normal, but in my own ears my voice was harsh.
"Cynical of your voice, Dly. Why? Are you jealous of me? " I saw he was a bit awkward seeing my behavior. What does it mean?
"Jealous? What do you mean? I don't understand? "
"Because I embraced Selenna yesterday." I was surprised again. How did he know? I looked at him with a look of inquiry. Or maybe he knows I'm there. As if he could read my mind, he chuckled and nodded.
"Yes. I saw you last time. And from what I see, you are really jealous of me. " I just bowed to hear his words. I shifted my gaze to the book, but my mind was hazy. There is something I want to ask him.
"Do you like Selenna?" I asked without looking away from the book. I only glanced briefly then turned my gaze earlier. I caught a glimpse of the expression on his face a little surprised, maybe did not think I would ask such a thing.
"Yes, I like Selenna." The answer was enough to make me singakat cut. I tightened the handle of the book. "But don't worry," I interrupted, then looked at her. He smiled. "I've been rejected, Dly. Right after you left yesterday, I felt I had to shoot him right then and there. And I did it. I told him how I felt with him. He was silent for a long time I thought Selenna would accept me. "I don't know. He refused me."
I looked at him, stunned. There was an impression of disappointment when he finished the story earlier. I felt my love for him, but on the other hand I also felt happy. I saw him come back, and he smiled at me, sincerely.
"I know, behind your friendship, you have a feeling. But you don't want to reveal it. Am I right, Dly? You like Selenna, your best friend. "
I was stunned, but now I answer the question in a tone not as explicit as before. This time it is more friendly. "You know," I said with a laugh. He laughed.
"I'm not knowledgeable. But I really know. Chase after him, Dly, later it will be dangerous if someone overtakes you. " He stood up and patted my shoulder. Then give a thumbs up. I just smiled seeing him leave my class. For a moment I thought about the words. Yes, I'm afraid Selenna will be shot again by someone else. Looks like I have to act fast.
Selenna just stared at her book. For some reason today he lost his spirit. He did not even know what he was reading. Everything he did was confused.
‘I am indeed in love with a girl.’ Adly's words touched his mind again. He felt sad. Adly will have a boyfriend. And he is sad. "Ouch ... Selenna, what's wrong with you, you should be happy." Selenna grumbled to herself. But still, he felt heavy releasing Adly. It's hard because maybe he has ... Oh, no. Selenna shook her head. Erase thoughts that have just crossed.
"What is wrong with you? How come it looks upset? "
Selenna turned around, found Sony had taken a seat right next to her. He smiled wryly. "Never mind. Just feel dizzy seeing the formula you want to memorize. " That's the only reason Selenna can say, because she doesn't have time to think anymore.
"But from your face, I know you're not thinking about that formula. "You're not looking at a book anyways." Selenna was silent. Try thinking about finding a more appropriate reason. But his mind stuck, did not want to be invited to work together.
"I was just from your class." Sony spoke again, because he was confused to see Selenna who was silent. Selenna turned, "Oh yeah? What are you doing?"
"I was going to meet you, but you're not in class. I happen to have Adly, so I come to him. " Hearing Adly's name, Selenna felt guilty for trying to avoid Adly. And apparently Adly was aware of that.
"Adly is good huh. You're lucky to be his best friend. " Selenna nodded at Sony's statement. Sony went on to say, "especially if you are Adly's girlfriend, surely you will be suitable."
Selenna was shocked to hear Sony's words. Then he said, "Looks like your words only apply in the world of fantasy. Besides, Adly also likes other girls. " There was a bitter impression when his mouth said those words.
Sony just smiled and looked at Selenna. "I know. And I also know, Adly is the reason you refused me. " Selenna looked at Sony with a surprised expression.
"Sony, I'm sorry. That's not the reason, but ... "
"You can't lie to you Selenna. You like Adly, more than friends. " Sony turned Selenna's body towards him. "Listen Selenna, I really love you. But I also can't force your heart to be for me. However you have your choice. Besides, I'm sure Adly can take care of you, like all this time. "
Selenna is stunned, petrified. Try asking to his heart. He looked down. "I think you're right, Sony. I like it, more than a friend. "
Sony smiled. "Very nice. Then tell him. "
Selenna looked at Sony. "But he already likes another girl."
"He hasn't told you about the girl, right. So you still have a chance. And according to Adly, the girl was very similar to you. Or if I think about it, that girl really is you. Hopefully my mind will not miss, "Sony smiled. He deliberately said that so that Selenna was more confident. Even though his heart felt throbbing, he was willing. As long as Selenna can be happy.
Selenna just looked down embarrassed. He also hopes so. Sony is right, it's better if he tells his feelings to Adly, before Adly confesses his love to a girl who knows who and makes Adly confused later because of his friend's doing. The response that Adly gave was a later matter. Selenna looked at Sony, "thank you, Sony. You are my best friend."
"Glad to be your best friend. Now you better go to class, because the bell will ring soon. " Right after Sony said that, the bell immediately rang. Selenna tidied up her book and took her quickly to class. Not forgetting he threw a smile at Sony.
"Let's walk, shall we?" I said to Selenna as she cleared the book on her desk. Other students have left the classroom to go home. Selenna narrowed her eyes, "Are you talking to me?"
"No, it's the same as the wall," I answered curtly and then I continued,
"Yes, yes, I'm talking to you. Do you want it or not? "
Selenna smiled to herself. ‘Adly doesn't usually want to invite me to walk.’ His heart was cheering now. I who saw Selenna smiles by herself patting Selenna's shoulder. "Hoi, why are you smiling like that?"
Selenna was frustrated and embarrassed to find Adly smiling to herself. Selenna lowered her face and looked for words to answer, "eh, no. Yeah, I just feel funny you want to ask me to walk. Normally I never do. That's just weird. "
Selenna and I walked away from the class. While walking together we continued to talk. "I'm just cramped today. Especially all day you face like tangled yarn. Yes, I'm more sorry. So, do you want it or not? "
Selenna nodded quickly, "Ok, what time will it be? And where are you meeting? "
"7:30 p.m. I pick you up. Oh, yes. Do you want me to take you home? "
Selenna snapped. Never before had Adly offered him a ride. Selenna shook her head, "My brother might have picked up. Just go ahead. "
With a little disappointed, I nodded. I then say goodbye to Selenna and step my feet towards the parking lot. Maybe this is the time I will confess my love to him.
At 1915 Selenna is getting ready. Somehow he felt he had to look beautiful. He looked back at himself in front of the mirror. Hmm, isn't it neat yet? Selenna asked herself. Selenna thought for a moment. He wanted to express his feelings to Adly, and Selenna hoped that even if there were other Adly, Adly's attention for him would never diminish. Although only as a friend.
The bell rang. Selenna immediately looked at the clock. 19.25. Maybe it's Adly. Selenna looked back at herself in the mirror, smiled then hurried downstairs. He opened the door and saw a man standing in front of his house, a little stunned to see Selenna. Selenna just smiled, then greeted her.
"Hi, Adly. Sorry, I'm going too long. "
Without responding to Selenna's words, Adly immediately said, "Lo ... Um, you look different. Looks pretty."
Selenna felt her cheeks blush from hearing Adly's praise. "Oh, yes? thanks. But I'm not really beautiful, "joked Selenna.
Adly just laughed, "Hahaha. Okay. Let's go now
Selenna nodded. After Selenna said goodbye with her mother, they left. Adly runs his motorcycle in the direction of the city park. They both then walked to see the atmosphere of the city park at night. It turns out that even though tonight is not week end, the city park is still crowded.
Selenna and Adly stopped at a place to eat near the city park. Long tour was enough to make their stomach growling. While waiting for food to come, they just stayed. Suddenly the atmosphere felt awkward. Selenna feels maybe now is the time. There will be no chance for him. Come on, Selenna. Now or never. The inner whisper.
"Adly."
"Selenna."
They looked at each other. Unintentionally, they called in unison. Adly felt he would listen to Selenna first.
"You go first."
Selenna was flattered by Adly's defeatism. And he was also a bit surprised, because Adly called him by your name, not you. Selenna was getting more nervous, but she was trying to overcome her nervousness.
"Actually I want to say, I'm afraid of losing you." Selenna could see the look on Adly's face, her brow wrinkled, indicating that Adly did not understand his words.
"You mean?"
"It's about you saying you already like a girl. I should be your best friend feeling happy. But this is not the case. I'm afraid you forget me, don't see me anymore. " Adly listened to every word that came out of Selenna's mouth. Selenna continued to say. "I just realized, Dly. I can't see you with other people. I ... I'm jealous. I already like you. "
Selenna was finally able to finish her words. A little feeling of relief at having said what was in his heart. But Selenna was also ashamed, she was afraid that Adly would stay away from him. Selenna just looked down. A moment later he felt someone was holding his hand. He raised his head and saw that it was Adly who was holding his hand while smiling at him.
"OK. Now it's my turn to talk. "
Adly looked into Selenna's eyes, "I love you, Selenna."
Selenna was stunned. Do not know what to say. Too surprised to hear Adly's statement. The question arose in his mind, didn't Adly like a girl.
As if she could read Selenna's mind, Adly smiled. "I told you before, you really know the girl I like. And now the girl is in front of me. That girl is you. I don't know when this taste appeared. But I know I can't get rid of this taste. I like everything about you, especially your smile. That's what makes me not want to be far from you. "
Adly looked at Selenna. Still holding Selenna's hand, Adly reconnected her words, "Selenna, would you be my girl?"
Selenna just paused. His mouth suddenly became stiff. His head feels so light. His heart is so carefree now. Didn't think Adly would have the same taste as what she felt. Selenna wanted to answer yes, but her mouth was locked. Too happy to realize the reality. Finally he could only nod his head.
Adly was relieved. Its goals are also achieved. He increasingly tightened his grip. Then looked at Selenna. "Thank you." He said quietly, but filled with affectionate tones. Selenna finally made a sound. "Thank you again. Sorry, I'm too nervous. "
Adly chuckled, "so, Selenna dear. I want to say, I already have a new boyfriend. You don't need to be jealous of my girlfriend. The person is now in front of me, being shy. " Joking Adly.
Selenna hit Adly softly. Embarrassed by what was said by Adly. "You are. Good at making me nervous. I'm resentful ... "
"Resentful, you also love me right?". Selenna smiled. A smile that made Adly even more in love. A smile that succeeded in capturing Adly's heart. And they both will start a new day happily with status no longer friends. But the new status as lovers.