It's really been a while. I hope you are all doing well. I've been absent for so long due to numerous offline activities. I beat myself up every day whenever I remember that I should be writing here, but there's very little I can do about it at the moment.
However, today I decided to come here and publish my thoughts. This post is simply a collection of whatever is on my mind right now.
These past few months have been a rollercoaster of emotions for me. Some days, I wake up feeling extremely grateful, while on other days, I wake up carrying the emotions of the previous night.
I've been going through a lot lately, and I can't even find the right words to describe where I am mentally and emotionally. All I can say is that I've been a jack of all trades and a master of none. At the beginning of the year, I prayed to God for about twelve things, and one of them was a stable source of income.
Looking at where I am today, it is obvious to me that my subconscious mind has been pushing me toward achieving that goal. So many income opportunities have been presented to me, and I grabbed them all, trying to juggle everything at once. I know this may not be the best approach, but at this point, I am still trying to figure out what will work well for me in both the short term and the long term.
Along the way, I have had many experiences. I have had encounters that brought happiness and others that brought pain and tears. During this period, I also realized how much we all need good friends in our lives, not just friends, but quality friends. There were moments when I was so stressed and frustrated that I desperately needed someone to talk to, but I couldn't find anyone who truly understood me except my mum.
During this time, I also came to appreciate the gift of a sound mind. I have been reading my affirmations daily, journaling, and listening to podcasts. These practices have been incredibly helpful, and I would recommend them to anyone.
I am the kind of person who sees beauty in everything. I believe every struggle comes with a lesson, and my faith in God always gives me hope that there are great things ahead of me.
I also can't overlook how positivity has helped me in my business. It feels like whenever I truly believe that I will make sales, I eventually end up selling something. My colleagues often ask how I do it because, to them, it sometimes feels like magic.
This experience has made me more mindful of the things I say and believe. It has encouraged me to stay positive and speak good things about myself every day.
For some reason, I had a huge breakdown last night. I barely slept, and for a few hours, everything felt heavier than usual. But here I am today, showing up again and choosing to keep moving forward.
As I mentioned earlier, I have a lot on my plate at the moment. There is simply no way to give everything equal attention, so some things have had to take a back seat, and unfortunately, Hive has been one of them. Right now, about 60% of my focus is on school. Thankfully, that season is almost coming to an end, as I should be graduating in less than two months.
Looking back on these past few months, I realize that even though they have been filled with uncertainty, stress, and countless questions, they have also been filled with lessons, growth, and moments of grace. I may not have everything figured out yet, but I am learning, adapting, and taking things one day at a time.
For now, that is enough. And for that, I am very grateful.
Photos are mine.