Lol. As if. I thought I wanted friends to talk to. I mean I do. But... It doesn't actually work. At least for me. What I really want is an old cliche. I want my health back. Yep. Nothing else matters. Of course if I manage to get free from pain I suppose the usual things and desires will start up all over again. I saw a short bit with Leonard Cohen and he was asked about his time meditating and I can't quite remember the exact words but he essentially said that Roshi and the work he did healed him from the miseries of life and death. I wish I could find that and... Well that's stupid. Reading won't save me. I sure as heck don't know how to get where he got. I know I don't ever want to come back to a body here. Or anywhere else like this. Ok. please if you have read this far don't worry and just let it go. Just let it/me and my BS just go
