I agree with Harold. Wholeheartedly.
I hope therapy helps; my son was recently in a four week day program at a hospital and, if nothing else, it helped him to not be suicidal. He did not like going - like you, he was very uncomfortable with it - but the end result was more positive than not. My hopes are with you that you're able to work past the unease.
And if anyone gives you any sort of even minimal anguish, remember Harold's advice: Fuck everyone.
Harold knows the life:)