I can imagine those experiences would weigh very heavy on your heart, soul, and mind. I'm elated that you were able to succeed in living beyond those pains and learning to incorporate them into your life in a healthy manner. I too believe we will see a massive end to suffering of the human species within our life times. There have been massive waves of people up and changing perspectives almost instantly, pushing the agenda of world peace through actual peaceable means rather than through violence to instill the illusion of peace.
I think you are a very beautiful being - thank you for your continued existence.
Many blessings && Eternal love!