Yeah, it's a shame it's not legal everywhere. I do think that places with at least medical would be far better for someone in your situation. You are clearly not a "stoner" or pot smoker (nothing wrong with being one or not being one) but could almost certainly benefit from its use medically. Maybe even topical solutions would help you. They also have drinks, oils, etc.
Someday! Fingers crossed. It's not legal medically where I live either.