Hello!
Welcome to Steemiverse!
I feel you on all your sentiments and issues regarding how the community works here. Its really not an on the spot big earnings. Patience is truly a virtue. In time you will earn what you deserve. Just keep the faith and continue doing where your passion lies.
I suggest that you join other groups to widen your engagement. And i think there are projects set for newbies like you.
Good luck! And hope to bump into you in the future..