I was just clicking through some stories until I ended up at yours.
This is a really heavy story. It must've been real hard for you to have typed this and reliving it all. It made me stare to the screen silently for a while after reading it.
I hope everything will work out for you and that you'll still become the wonderful mother that you've always wanted to be. (because in the end there are more ways to become a mother).
I will finish this post. Thank you so much for reading.