Ha, wish I could take part, though I don't know if being some seven years form my actual birth date might've made New Year's in '92 a tad unremarkable! :D
Seriously though, this post made me smile. I'm glad you got your wish, your major change. Do you sometimes think what your life would look like if you hadn't, though? Just curious.
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Jesus, now I feel really old @honeydue! You may've still been living your former life in 1992 (if you subscribe to the belief of past lives).
You know, I do sometimes think about how my life would look like if I stayed in that relationship. One thing is for sure, my life would be much smaller. We would have settled down in the small town in Ohio my ex-fiance grew up in. I would been responsible for a family in my 20's and would have had to put my own dreams on hold. I would now have had children and grandchildren, which would have been satisfying and rewarding in its own right. Looking back, I was super self-centered then.
Considering the sheer amount of work and number of years it took for me to get where I am today, I never would have achieved anywhere near this level of success had I not made that major change. That's allowed me to provide for others and hopefully make their lives better in different ways. I've been able to do things that my younger self would have never imagined.
I do have a stepson now (since 2005) and I've had a taste of what it's like to be a parent through him. I've enjoyed that tremendously. I wake up some mornings and still can't believe it all worked out. I was the first in my family to even graduate from high school. There were so many opportunities for everything to completely fall apart. I just got extremely lucky.
Hmm, hope it was a good New Year's, then. And sorry, that was not my intention :P
For some reason, this sentence speaks to me a lot. I've got this constant fear of a small life, perhaps of settling down in a life that is not meant for me. I really am glad it worked out for you so tremendously well, and I love how aware you are. I mean, the question was asked knowing you'd be the kind of person to reflect on things like that, but it's very refreshing, still. :)
I had that very same fear at your age about the small life. It never felt like the "right time" to have a family because of other goals/interests. Sometimes I think about that on this side of life and wonder if it was just me being selfish. I see plenty of people who have achieved great things and have had families too. I can't help but believe those feelings are there for a reason though, and for me that nagging feeling never went away. I think what ignites us and fills us with excitement draws us closer to our destiny and it's smart to follow that.
I agree. I've always seen this nagging as a protective fence of sorts, and I always feel safer within its confines than outside of them. I've no idea how things will play out, but right now, I think this fear is helpful, as it's steering me towards the things I want, or that I think I want, at least.