Oh, my birthday brother, my heart goes out to you.
You need a friend that you can call when this happens.
Since we are of the same birth time I can relate. Our first instinct is to charge and fight till the death and when manic continue to pick until we get a fight. Only Taurus-Aries understand what I mean.
Our demon go, but never far away.
I will send my cell number to you in discord. Please call me anytime day or night because I too do not sleep, until my eyes can no longer stay open. I stopped tying to go to sleep a long time ago and now live on my schedule. It simplifies things.
Do I ever! It's definitely an internal battle when "in the moment", and the current goal I have, is to deconstruct the emotional response, while replacing it with a more logic based one. Yeah it sounds easy, and we both know it isn't, and that mania sucks, but at times can be pretty useful.
I'm happy you are able to figure out a way to simplify it lol.
I really appreciate this, and since I don't exactly have a phone pal, I think this might be an offer I can't refuse!
Thank you birthday sister. 😎