Hi friend, I really appreciate your kind words. Everyone has been very kind and understanding. Sometimes, when in a crisis moment, it helps to write.. For me anyways.
PTSD has been misunderstood for the longest time. It's starting to become a bit more recognized as something anyone could have, rather than just Veterans. Basically, anything in your life that could be considered traumatic, could cause this type of condition. Even something like a close pet dying, which isn't considered by most to be terribly traumatic, but we are all different in how we feel and perceive, so while one person might lose an animal and accept it for what it is, another might obsessively think about their lost pet, and that is an example that I have actually seen before.
So, if you suspect you might be suffering from PTSD, based on what you have read here, my suggestion is to read up on what the symptoms are, as a means of trying to determine if this could be the case. It isn't easy to self diagnose however, and could be wrong, and/or lacking in understanding of other underlying issues that coexist with the PTSD. Disorders tend to compound in this sense if gone untreated. If your understanding of psychology is limited as a whole, I would personally recommend at the very least, consulting with a psychiatrist. That doesn't mean you have to take medicine, even if it's offered, but it might help you get a proper diagnosis.
A little google searching around will bring a ton of literature your way on this particular disorder.
To get you started in the right direction, I searched for an easy to understand, yet good breakdown Of PTSD
There is a reason you landed on this post. I hope that you will find healing friend. Thank you for your comment.