Some people have failed more times than others have tried.
If I could tell you exactly what needs to be done to help you gain traction, I would. I don't know what that is though.
My art and writing, especially if I'm writing jokes, those things are nothing without eyes or laughs. I know it's not easy being here and performing in front of so many empty seats. We're all in the same boat. I've taken breaks from the place. It never comes out right when it's forced. Do what you gotta do, man.