Where does that leave

On January 24 in 2018, is a very bad day today, maybe is my own mood influence, before I always thought that I am not a conceited and pampered, but now I think I am such a person, don't have the ability, always boast and self-righteousness, is what, this world are the ones who have the ability to service, also has the ability to realize the value of the local, which no ideological progress and positive person is not qualified to exist in this world, in my country, the society is very realistic, the rich have the right to have one section of the channel, the easier it is to earn money at the bottom of society, the more people, in addition to labor and time to sell, is no other way.
My country, welfare lottery is the biggest scam or sports lottery, every city has stores, deeply attracted by this lottery a lot at the bottom of society people to buy, although the news always has someone who is in the hundreds of millions, but actually all is false, that is just in order to deceive us the money of the common people, sometimes I don't want to be disappointed in this society is not, I am also a member of the underlying, no special abilities, in a small factory for several years, now, find themselves have been eliminated by the society, I hate most is to play the online gambling, or borrowed loans to play, now I have is truly negative assets, information from the phone every day, every day to work under pressure and suffering, the terrorist who dun PS your id photo, make up some things that you never do what drugs, prostitution, will regret insult your family relatives, I do my own will to take on, but who had not hurt my loved ones.
Alas, sometimes deep confusion, what I am, how I can get worse and worse, this society is what.