I am glad you mentioned that holding back anger is bad, I feel much better now. Not cathartic as one might from having a good cry , maybe because you stubbed your toe but actually that was just the last straw on the camels back that has been carrying so much yet just kept ignoring it because what does not kill you makes you stronger right? Why cry if you are going to be better for it in the end?
Ah but although some of us, not me, cry inside and will not allow the tears to show be it from happy or sad , all hail anger because that seems to be the one acceptable way to release.
Maybe if the wind blows just right your eyes will "water" but remember that it is from the wind.