This whole article is literally a process I am in. I seek knowledge and truth about everything, always looking externally for 'truth', knew about practically every conspiracy out there, jumped onto this band wagon, then came off it, then the next one, then came off it, until probably about a year ago my mind really started to crack, all this seeking and trying to maintain the pressures of everyday life. Working as a manager, trying to become financially stable, trying to eat the right food's and trying to find answers to satisfy my cravings of the mind. I think my mind just collapsed on it'self about 6 months ago and I quit work. It's been a bit of a whirl wind since then and a painful process of unravelling my self once again. The first time from the main stream program we grow up in and into seeking truth, and this time around unravelling from all that truth i found because it did not bring much understanding. Just more confusion and more frustration because of the lack of understanding, information is not knowledge. I did not plan for this to happen I just could not function at work anymore, this process just sort have started to happen it self when i allowed my self some time just to breathe and just be.
Layers of my self have been peeling off, as well as relationships, habits, and it's a ridiculously painful process. But much understanding is coming from looking into my self, those lyrics are spot on! I have a long way to go but i think i am making progress. I hope so anyway!
Great post.
well done.. CONGRATS to you for waking up.. and being brave .. it will all make sense in time, but these Huge transitions take many years to integrate and move on from..
next step.. get self sufficient! ;=_)
Already on it ;)