It has been an empowering shoot to say the least.
For ones because I let go of believing that something inside of me is the cause for people's abuse towards me.
There is SO much I have been through and seen, so many times I wanted to give up, no strength left for the next breath. Yet, I am here.
I am alive.
I made it. All the way through. With my child.
YAY!!!!!
If that is not a reason to celebrate!!!!!
Oh my goodness.
One of the ideas was to do a shoot in lingerie.
That, too, went into the bin after having taken the first photo in it.
It carried memories from past relationships.
Into the bin.
Fresh start.
And leaving clothes on has been a conscious choice, too.
Too often have I wondered wether I needed to strip naked or be naked publically or in private to be more lovable/seen/accepted/successful.
I let go of that, too and did 100% what felt right. No more. No less.
If that is boring to someone. Cool. Theirs. Not mine. I strip myself of other people's opinions about me 🔥
It was a fun celebration shoot.
I'm loving it.
I also love that my clothes are black simply for the reason that I faced the darkest moment of my life just before I let the light in, years ago. Just before I opened up and got honest with myself about the situation I was in.
I had taken it for too long, asked too many people outside of me and wondered for too long.
It had become so dark. The darkest of dark. Almost as if it was the 5 shades darker after dark with endless space of emptiness, coldness, lostness, unforgiveness, mistrust, blame, hiding, fear, insecurities, shivering and darkness inbetween.
It was so dark.
This moment still comes up in waves today mixed with shock and fear. And it is just an energy.
It's over now.
It's enough.
My soul wouldn't be able to handle any more anyways.
And: I feel dark/black suits me.
You still get to shine. In fact, in needs to be dark in order for stars to shine.
Turning the lights on is a choice.
Shining is a choice.
Turning the dark into light is a choice.
Choosing to learn in and with love is a choice.
What you make out of your life/situation/self is a choice.
For that, I take a stand.
That, I celebrate.
I choose fun.
I choose love. Unconditional love. Not the abuse that I thought was love.
Real love.
True love.
The love that I am and choose to be.
Yay!!!
Freedom.
By the way, the colours of your soul shine through no matter what, no matter how dark. Life is not black and white. Or not just. ;-) 🏳️🌈
PS: I love that you can see my tattoo in this photo that says 'I am worthy'. So are you.
You are worthy of the love you are seeking and need. So worthy.
Full trust. 100% faith and absolute surrender.
More and then some more.
Incredible that you can shift and change this simply by working on yourself.
Literally unbelievable to a degree.
Let's celebrate this deeply.
🔥💃🔥
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