Because everything we make becomes a part of us. To let it go, you need a good reason and trust. OR a lot of alcohol... I like to think the first two reasons were why. :D
And you are so welcome.
You helped me too, you know. I have a story half written on this blockchain, and for the life of me, the words would not leave my head and make it to paper. Hence the 4 parts above linked...
I had seen your artwork, and the story wrote itself over the days in my head, but the block I had was still very strong. Finally, tonight, for the first time ever, I sat and wrote one word at a time. There was no flowing, easy writing for me this night. Six hours took to drag each word out and get it typed. But it was all worth it in the end cuz there is now a lightness to me that hasn't been here in a long ass time.
You and your art gave me that. Tomorrow I will try and finish the fairy story that has waited too long to be written.
And someday, when you least expect it there will be a note from me on one of your posts. Of this, I know to be true :D
No, I rarely drink and if I do, 99% of the time I stay away from the internet.
I haven't been able to write or work on any art for months. Unfortunately I don't think I'll be starting up any time soon either.
The last one to use my art stole it and wrote all kinds of BS about me and several others. That wasn't cool and it seems he's back.
So yeah. This was different.
I just noticed you did the beneficiary thing. You didn't have to do that but it is appreciated. Thank you. Good doing business with you.
This year has been the hardest year for me for many reasons. Each thing that happened to me broke me a little bit more. I had more cracks and pieces missing. It was a wonder I got out of bed...Some days it was close.
I have been waging war over here to keep my head above water. A lot of those days I ended up using a straw to still be able to breathe.
Each thing that happened dampened my creativity which took away the things that makes me happy. When I am happy, I can write easily, for the most part. So while this is my 5th year here, I have written less than at any other time. That made me sad. Very sad. This is my happy place, and I need it to be just that.
I was talking to a wise person yesterday. They pointed a few things out to me...Things I knew, but when you hear someone you respect say it all together, you realize a few things.
One is you are letting others control you. Something I will not allow, but I was doing without realizing it. I was letting my joy being taken from me and had given up the fight...cuz I was being lazy? Tired? Who knows, but I was living without the thing that gives me the most joy, and I was not fighting for it. And I am not known for giving up even in the hardest circumstances.
After thinking about it the rest of yesterday, night came, and I started to fill my head with noise so I didn't have to hear my thoughts. But this time I stopped myself knowing if I didn't at least Try, another day would go by or another month, and I would have nothing happy to show for my time spent on this Earth.
And others still winning while I sat and took it.
When I say, I wrote the above post one letter at a time...I mean one letter at a time. I just never gave up, and I ended up with a story I am very proud of.
But when I play a game or learn something new, I am slower than most and have never let that stop me if I want it bad enough. But I was fighting for something that meant more to me than any game. It didn't make sense when it was brought to my attention.
So I fought. Lucky for me, while the battle was painful, it ended well. I had become smarter and had a page of single words that fully told the story to help me along the way.
It's funny how I can stand up for others and what is right, but when it comes to myself...I do not always use the same energy I should in helping myself...
And I think I have rambled on enough...But remember, you are worth fighting for. You made a piece of artwork showing saving the world and all that is good in it.
HUGS!
I hear everything you're saying, loud and clear. I hold my ground. If I'm working here, I want to be entertaining. I've only posted 24 times in the past two years. The mind isn't in the right place. I can't force it or fake it. I find other things to do. I don't mind hanging around looking at posts. And I like my quiet time away. Thinking back to about a year ago, I told you it's healthy. Going with the flow. Staying true to myself. But again, I hear you.
Please keep being you and doing your wonderful, multilayered art. You inspire people. You bring joy and smiles to many when it is needed most.
We are all needed on this Earth to be ourselves. We all teach others when we interact. We are all different because one person can not know everything...but you can know someone who knows what you need to know if you just ask.
Thank you for being YOU!
I just did what was right and fair.