I'm so sorry you lost your husband! Your plea for sorrow to loosen its grip on your breath is riveting. Another Lydia Viscardi painting--it's beautiful, as always, and remarkable, the way the picture-within-a-picture shows your husband at a remove, in the background. I love the way you're both smiling in the painting. "One year down" - I'm reminded of Queen's "39" song, though I don't imagine you'd say, "For my life, still ahead, pity me." You bravely face the years ahead without him. {Hugs!}
Thank you! It was a complicated marriage, friendship, death and aftermath. Nothing was ever simple with this guy! That was what I both loved and hated about him. I learned a lot too.