Once your disability gets approved you can also look for vitamins that help treat depression. I have taken an antidepressant for 14 years but vitamins help too!
Like you @dizzyjay, I have had my share of health issues and experienced homelessness once, but things are looking up for me too.
Thanks @chrisrice I know that things are worth fighting for. I have control of my illness and am working through it to be the best dad I can be. Life constantly throws trials at me and im still here so I believe that Im still here for a reason.
It's good to see you are motivated to be a good Dad. I think the disability payments will also help you purchase medication.
In my life, antidepressents helped ease depression the most, but suppliments are also helping.
I experience avolition, a symptom similar to depression, and it's similar to amotivation syndrome too.
So be careful about smoking marijuana - on Wikipedia it says that heavy use of marijuana is linked to amotivational syndrome, and that's definitely something you want to avoid, if you can.