Powerful. You loved your husband very much, it's clear. When he was alive, he knew it. Your forgetting the anniversary of his death shows that you are healing, I think. It doesn't mean that you love and miss him any less. I hope the suffocation you are feeling goes away quickly.
Congrats are in order as well! :)
Thank you! The response to this freewrite has sure helped with the sorrow!
This is great news indeed!