When I was young, I had that same problem, really bad. It prevented me from achievements easily within my reach. School; hated going because of it.
In my late teen years, maybe 18, I had a really bad trip on mushrooms. It created so much fear and anxiety within me to the point I was convinced I would die. For several hours I was stuck within my mind, scared. I survived, of course. After a few days I started noticing any amount of fear and anxiety I'd experience naturally didn't feel nearly as bad, because I had that bad trip to compare it to; the natural stuff didn't even come close. Does that make sense?
It's like I needed to know what truly intense fear really feels like so the basic social anxiety stuff couldn't make much of an impact on how I think.
Now I'm the one that freaks people out when they're all shelled up. But I don't mean to. Just trying to be friendly.
Maybe it’s a little pathetic but I’m definitely not doing things I want because of my anxiety. Sometimes I dip my toe in and regret it because I then play some stupid little conversation or mishap in my head for the next 20 years. 🙃
So your advice is to take mushrooms? Haha. I’m afraid (pun intented) I have enough nightmares as is, no need to add to it.
I much prefer people who are more forward and approach introverts to help us out. Keep at it.
I don't see it as pathetic. And of course I still experience it from time to time.
Those haunting thoughts, I know well. Was writing about that a bit in this post and they still mess with me, really bad. I've experienced some intense things. And some of them aren't intense, I simply regret it, more than I really need to, but it's out of my control.
I don't actually recommend taking those mushrooms if that's not your thing, and it's probably illegal to own them. That discovery was an accident and I'll still use them as a medicine to treat that issue, but I can't say it would work for everyone.
Here's something to think about: Can you predict the future? For most people the answer is no. What is worry? Just a fancy way we trick ourselves into thinking we can predict the future, but you can't predict the future, so don't worry.
I thought of that one day and it mellows out my worries when I think of it.
Another thing I started doing years ago, and love doing it now, is walking with my head up. Looking at everyone. None of them see me. It's kind of fun. I want to say most people are in that shell, and it's quite normal. Thinking it's wrong but knowing it's not really helps as well.
The hockey mask is a little scary.
When I was young, I had that same problem, really bad. It prevented me from achievements easily within my reach. School; hated going because of it.
In my late teen years, maybe 18, I had a really bad trip on mushrooms. It created so much fear and anxiety within me to the point I was convinced I would die. For several hours I was stuck within my mind, scared. I survived, of course. After a few days I started noticing any amount of fear and anxiety I'd experience naturally didn't feel nearly as bad, because I had that bad trip to compare it to; the natural stuff didn't even come close. Does that make sense?
It's like I needed to know what truly intense fear really feels like so the basic social anxiety stuff couldn't make much of an impact on how I think.
Now I'm the one that freaks people out when they're all shelled up. But I don't mean to. Just trying to be friendly.
Not sure which one is better.
Maybe it’s a little pathetic but I’m definitely not doing things I want because of my anxiety. Sometimes I dip my toe in and regret it because I then play some stupid little conversation or mishap in my head for the next 20 years. 🙃
So your advice is to take mushrooms? Haha. I’m afraid (pun intented) I have enough nightmares as is, no need to add to it.
I much prefer people who are more forward and approach introverts to help us out. Keep at it.
I don't see it as pathetic. And of course I still experience it from time to time.
Those haunting thoughts, I know well. Was writing about that a bit in this post and they still mess with me, really bad. I've experienced some intense things. And some of them aren't intense, I simply regret it, more than I really need to, but it's out of my control.
I don't actually recommend taking those mushrooms if that's not your thing, and it's probably illegal to own them. That discovery was an accident and I'll still use them as a medicine to treat that issue, but I can't say it would work for everyone.
Here's something to think about: Can you predict the future? For most people the answer is no. What is worry? Just a fancy way we trick ourselves into thinking we can predict the future, but you can't predict the future, so don't worry.
I thought of that one day and it mellows out my worries when I think of it.
Another thing I started doing years ago, and love doing it now, is walking with my head up. Looking at everyone. None of them see me. It's kind of fun. I want to say most people are in that shell, and it's quite normal. Thinking it's wrong but knowing it's not really helps as well.