Thanks for the reply and the commiseration. I honestly didn't know I was going to open up so much when I started the post. Seems to be, becoming a theme. I try to sit down and watch something, and am distracted by wanting to write. And then life butts it's head in.
Totally respect the choice to pack it in and move where you want to go. Been there as well.
And YES, OISTNB has gotten really really good. Making big statements about race and the lack of privilege. Dive back in!