Hello, I am a recovered Bulimic my self, from the age of 11- 20 before I really started my recovery phase, that took a good 3 or 4 years. So it was a very long standing engrained illness to over come and I can say I honestly understand your battle.
My trigger was nothing to do with dieting or body image, that developed after, there are multiple factors that contribute to the development of an eating disorder. I have not started blogging about it yet, I want to have far more followers before I start with all of that, but it's something I will get into in great detail and how I recovered, it might interest you to follow my page. :)
Another user is trying to get a discord channel set up for recovery and addiction issues, he needs 15 comments of interest for it to be considered, if that get's active I would like to use that to engage with people who are struggling with this, I have a post with a link to his post about that group if it's something that may interest you then go and leave a comment on his post .
And also if you want to meet up in the chatroom at all id be more than willing to, sometimes just talking to someone who actually understands what it's like can make such a difference.
YOU CAN BEAT THIS. It may take some time, but you absolutely can I promise. Big hugs xx
I'd be really interested then to know how you think you've developed your ED, it's always nice to get a new angle on it, while on the way to recovery. And btw, it's nice to see you are invested in spreading wellness- I've checked your posts- and you're followed :)
Hello, sorry it's taken so long to reply I've had a busy 2 weeks no time for Steemit. In a nut shell my relationship with my mother was volatile, having later on studied psychology I understand now she had a mental illness at the time, but as a child I did not comprehend that. I was 11 years old and after an incident at home I was so angry and upset that I was physically shaking in anger and subsequently vomited by accident- just as a resuly of the overwhelming emotion. It was such a shock to my system that I had been sick that it sort of stopped the cascade of negative emotion I was experiencing. The next time I felt that way, I wanted so desperately to not feel that way I remembered that the last time it happened and I was sick that it stopped all the feelings. So this was the first time I purposefully made my self sick, to try and alleviate the emotions, and that's where the cycle began. I did not know what an eating disorder was at this point and I had never heard of bulimia. But quite quickly I realised that I could eat whatever I wanted if I was going to do this, and people started commenting on me loosing some weight and so here the body image concept crept in and the food addiction quickly followed. Within a mere few months I was in a tangle of using it to control my emotions in a situation I could not escape whilst also finding comfort in the bingeing etc. That progressed into a war with myself through all of my teenage years into my early twenties. It was a long road out, but I made it :) and I would like to help others if possible in the same situation, even if that help is just having someone to share experiences with who understands what its like.
Also, I wish I could upvote your comment- on which you've obviously worked- but for some reason it doesn't work..?
No worries I'm not here for a vote :)