At present, it seems that you are thinking a lot and struggling to achieve yourself.
Excessive physical and mental stress may have caused you to have a stroke.
It seems that the act of emptying all thoughts and emotions and pursuing comfort and happiness is better for your health.
Eastern philosophy says that the most comfortable moment for human beings is when all thoughts and emotions are emptied and there is a state of emptiness!
a state of emptiness! = (chinese character 無念無想)
I want to tell my friend @tarazkp the depth of Eastern thought! 😄