Life can certainly seem like a maelstrom sometimes—there can be such tangle of goals, desires, worries, uncertainties, and responsibilities swirling in our heads. It doesn't change much as we get older but maybe we learn to compartmentalize it better. Focusing on one thing at a time (when I can) helps with the task-paralyzation for me. It's wonderful you feel like you're better this year than the last. That is progress!